WARNING: Foul language abound..

Don't buy/use Maxis broadband... I strongly suggest against it, unless they upgrade their God damned freaking services.....

I really wanted to vomit blood already today... Called their customer service line, and as said before, I couldn't bitch all I want to their poor customer service attendant... so I'm ranting here...

Gaah.. I'm so pissed at them...!!!!!! My ass, that it is 15 times faster than dial up... dial up is more stable and faster than you!!!

Upgrade your fucking servers....

They keep promoting it, that now they have too many damn users, so the whole line jams up... I sure do pity the customer service line.. because this will mean more and more and more complaints for them to handle!

The best part? they can advice all they want, make you do this and that, waste both theirs and my time..click here, click there.. and you can't do a damned thing about it..
WHY????

Because it's not really per say a technical problem which requires support!!
It's called in simple lay man terms...
a surge of the network!!
The network is being overloaded and overworked!!

The attendant that attended to me said.. well it's like a highway.. when there are a lot of cars... won't it jam up?... Well like duuuh...
So shouldn't Maxis WIDEN THEIR FREAKING "HIGHWAY"??!!

That's cheating people of their money, and by right, I'm entitled to terminate the contract and claim damages, but the thing is.. damages is so minimal that it's a total waste of time and money to do something like that

-Oracl3-

two new onion head emoticons!!!

WARNING: RANT AHEAD, WITH MULTIPLE F*** LANGUAGE.... Do not read, if you are easily offended by the Four letter word, and I mean the four letter word beginning with 'F' and not 'U' (lame political joke... ask me if you don't get it...)

But the 'F' word is really the best to describe your angst/anger/angsty-anger etc. when you can't find the right word to use... I don't think there is a better way... And if you think I need anger management classes.. feel free to pay for me, cause I sure as hell can't afford it...
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Dear Maxis.....

Stupid, idiotic, fucking Maxis! what the fuck is your problem???!!!!!

irritating like hell...

If you want to sell your services, then at least upgrade your fucking servers first...

It's very,very, VERY bloody annoying when i have to refresh the page a minimum of 3 times just to read my freaking emails!!

And the downloads are worse....

Why the fuck do I need 4 hours just to download a 35mb file??? THAT'S WORSE THAN DAIL UP!! Even dail up would only take an hour....
Such a file should take about 10 minutes or less.... 20 minutes maximum...

Stupid and idiotic service, and you still have the nerve to promote it. heh.... Stupidity.... I'll badmouth it all I want, because it's the truth, and we will see how you fare!!

UMTS is fine for the package I pay for? What the hell, can I do with a UMTS reception?.. 60% of the time, I can't even enter Yahoomail/Gmail or MSN with UMTS... UMTS being fine, my ASS!!

What ever happened to my optimal surfing time??? i can't surf with UMTS, You dumb nitwits!!

Giving the current users a spin for their money now? Is that how it is?!! Bloody slow and lousy service!!

If it's a HSDPA reception, then keep it that way, don't play the Chipsmore cookies game with me!

What's with the "Now it's HSDPA and oh, now it's UMTS..." ??!!!
That's pure idiotic!! It disrupts my downloads!!

From:
A VERY, VERY(x 100,000,000,000) UNSATISFIED CUSTOMER!!

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I'm ranting here, because I'm too nice to bitch like this to the customer service when I call them to complain, because well, they aren't the ones at fault, and they have to face such rants, from God knows how many unhappy customers....

So I pity them, it's not their fault, yet they have to face this shit.. being in the customer service line is a really hard job you know... Because of the decisions and actions of the higher ups.. you are the one that has to pick up all the crap.. and it's very unpleasant... Very...

So yeah, this rant is headed more to MAXIS's fucking stupid management/ board of directors...

And hell yeah, I need an outlet to express myself, unless someone would care to introduce me to one of the fucking nitwits from MAXIS, who is responsible for this lousy service!!

-Oracl3-

Today, i.e. Sunday at 8.40pm on RTM(Radio Television Malaysia) 1 there was a 20 minute slot called blog, where Raja Petra was invited to speak...

oh, and what a nice 20 minute show it was haha.... it was hilarious, at some parts, when he spoke without giving the commentator a chance to speak.. I mean let's face it, we readers of RPK's blog now he has a lot of things to say.. heck I'm not sure how many people can beat him in a debate on politics...

As for me personally.. I might very well just agree with 90% (or less, depends what he talks about..) of what he says... haha... the things he says.. some of them are things that, even i have realised since i was in secondary school.... but one thing, that i'm sure he might get some backlash sooner or later from BN is the way he talked about Islam..

But he said things which even I knew as a secondary school kid... and that was Islam is a good religion in theory.. but it's some of the people that practise it, that gives the whole basket of apples a bad name..

It was so funny when he associated Islam with communism... In response to an argument he said that the kind of thinking that the government has.. i.e. curbing freedom of speech for fear of it affecting stability.. is a communist government's exact sentiment... and which countries ruled by Islam adopted.. thus making the west associate Islam with communists... haha.. that was funny... i didn't even know you could associate things that way..

anyway, apparently he will be back again, same time, next week. so be sure to catch him :p
At the rate and things he speaks about.. I wonder how long BN will allow him to speak...

on another note..this was something interesting i got from his blog which made me laugh too..

"Are Chinese & Indians merely hedging?"
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NO HOLDS BARRED

Raja Petra Kamarudin

The Chinese and Indians are not happy. They have not been happy since Merdeka in 1957. They were also not happy in 1969. The Chinese and Indians would like to see a level playing field. They want the special rights/privileges of the Malays abolished. They resent being called Malaysian Chinese and Malaysian Indians. They want to be just called Malaysians, period. Ketuanan Melayu and the New Economic Policy tantamount to Apartheid, argue the Chinese and Indians. They want all this racial discrimination to end.

The Malays have a counter-argument to this. This was what was agreed upon, say the Malays. Before Merdeka, all the races agreed to enter into a ‘Social Contract’. The ‘immigrants’ would be granted citizenship and the original ‘sons of the soil’ would be granted special rights/privileges. To ‘cement’ this ‘Social Contract’, this was stipulated in the Federal Constitution of Malaya.

The ‘Social Contract’ is ‘carved in stone’. Even more than two-thirds of Parliament can’t amend it or remove it from the Federal Constitution. Only the unanimous agreement of the Rulers can do this. Not even a simple majority vote of the Rulers can touch these ‘special provisions’. It must be unanimous. Therefore, to remove it, you must first abolish the Monarchy and turn Malaysia into a Republic. But to suggest that the Monarchy be abolished and Malaysia be turned into a Republic is a crime under the Sedition Act and you will be sent to jail if you do. So, by law, you are not allowed to suggest such a thing.

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haha.. so basically it's saying we can't do anything haha.. but if you read the whole article.. RPK was saying that for 53 years, the Chinese and Indian community has been supporting BN.. Well with the statistics that he showed it can't be denied.. but i think... That the swing in the votes for this year.. is also due to the younger generation..

People from my generation, who aren't afraid to speak out, and who are tired with all this racist politics... also with Malaysians becoming more open minded & educated, ... especially those who had their education overseas and came back.. and with the increased usage of the internet people change.. and well for the people who voted against BN... although it took them 53 years, to say: "enough is enough"..Well...it might be 53 years later.. but, as they say.. better late than never...

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-Oracl3-

I know, i know, i have more constructive things to do... but i still feel bored.. who doesn't when the only thing they can do is go and study.... so anyway.. to learn a bit more about myself, and to fill some time... i stole this, to do...

Starting time: 1925
Name: Cindy, Sayaka, Wei Sun.. take your pick..
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 8.. Which is frustrating, because most shoe makers believe that the Asian female's feet is no bigger than 7.. idiots...
Height: 163
Where do you live: On earth...

Favorite drinks: Don't have one, it used to be milk, but after the other day....
Favorite breakfast: (Gene's)French toast.. scrambled eggs... bacon.. ham.. TOAST BREAD!! Nasi lemak, dim sum..etc..
Have you ever been on a plane: so much, that I'm kind of sick of them.... especially long hour flights... But i don't mind them...
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: In primary school during my moral test.. since I finished it, and had nothing to do....
Broken someone's heart: Apparently I have...
Fell off your chair: Ermm... think so.... boys were mean back in primary school....
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No... if it rings, it rings... and i used to have the rule, no calling after 10pm haha.. & people had to set appointments to call me haha... but now it's always the mobile anyway...
Saved e-mails: Erm.. saved them in my inbox? i only delete spam... and notification emails...

What is your room like: pretty nice IMO, i like it the way it is now.. seeing that i'm the one that decorated it anyway..
What's right beside of you: Air
What is the last thing you ate: Chicken rice... make that a chocolate with a Macademia nut in it..
Ever had chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Stupid question..
Stitches: Nope, and proud of that fact..
Broken nose: No

Do you believe in love at first sight: Ermm, yes? but am sceptical...
Like picnics: It's okay, & kind of fun... unless i have to do all the work!!
Who was the last person you danced with: Ermm.. The last time i went clubbing.... was the last time i danced, i guess.. that makes it Horng Yang and Huey?
Last made you smile: My over-active imagination (dying lambs and pigs..) and my dog..
You last yelled at: My mom, over a ring.. read the post below...

Today did you talk to someone you like: What kind of like? if it's that like, then no..
Kiss anyone: Nope, unless my baby counts...
Get sick: I think I'm falling a little ill...
Talked to an ex: No
Miss someone: Hmm..... not today..
Eat: Duh.. I'm the female version of the glutton....Though lately, my stomach hasn't been doing too well...
Best feeling in the world: Happiness
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yup, I've two on my bed.. but i don't hug them..they just sit there to collect dust..
What's under your bed: Usually the dog.. and a box of anime?
Who do you really hate: Hate? no one... if it's sort of dislike.. you can count it with one hand. but i don't hate them.. so i'm still nice and decent with them..
What time is it now: 1937

Randoms :
Q:Is there a person who is on your mind right now: No
Q: Do you have any siblings: 2
Q: Do you want children: If possible no, but my future husband might want them, and well, opinions change with time...
Q: Do you smile often: Genuinely... Not much lately... unless when i'm with close friends & Family :p
Q: Do you like your handwriting: sometimes, but most of the time.. it's like some sort of scribble...
Q: Are your toenails painted: No
Q: Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: any bed, as long as the sheets are clean, and i get to sleep nice and comfortably...
Q: What color shirt are you wearing: Red
Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday: Having dinner
Q: I can't wait till: Errr.... i don't know.. the day i get wiped off into some alternate universe, where i get magical powers, save the world and find my prince charming???
Q: When did you cry last: June 2007, because i was leaving my friends at bridges hall..
Q: Are you a friendly person: My family complains that I'm a social butterfly...
Q: Do you have any pets: One little precious cute doggie..

Where is the person you have feelings for right now? - somewhere in this universe.. or the next? i don't know...
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? - Friends only... sorry, i have a habit of holding hands.. family/friends...
Do you sleep with the TV on? - Nope, unless I'm too tired, and accidentally fell asleep.. which is actually rare...
What are you doing right now? - Stupid question.. doing this tag la...
Have you ever crawled through a window? - Hmm... I think I have... It's not a common occurrence.. so i can't really remember
Can you handle the truth? - Yes... though sometimes it takes me a some time...
Are you too forgiving? - Yes.. and according to some people.. too forgiving for my own good
Are you closer to your mother or father? - Both...
Who was the last person you cried in front of? - My sister, because she was in the taxi with me, leaving bridges hall
How many people can you say you've really loved? - errgh Family & friends.. go figure...
Do you eat healthy? - Sort off, am kind of health concious, but i believe in indulging every once in a while, we only live once... so eat to your heart's content...
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? - What ex? old crush got la... the "might have been" one la haha
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? - Out of anger.. i teared.. but no wailing...
How often do you go to church? - Only when friends invite me for functions, and for weddings...
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? - No one
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? - all my friends will testify, that i'm one hell of a loud person... i'm only quiet when occasion demands for.. or if i don't feel comfortable in the situation i'm in.. or.. if i'm having a bad day... or if no one is paying any attention to me.. cause well, i can't very well talk to air...
Are you confident? - yes and no...

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 5 people and posts their names, than goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago..(1998??!!)
1-I was in primary 6
2-Sitting for my UPSR
3- Being involved in sports.. i was a 100m sprinter...
4- i was a librarian then..
5- enjoying my school life with my friends..

5 things on my to-do list today
1-Study for CLP
2-Learn and master the violin
3- Master the guitar
4- Improve on my piano skills
5-Drink more water...

5 Snacks I enjoy
1- Pringles (original and sour cream & onion, the other flavours are OK)
2- Fruits... Peach, plums, strawberries...
3- I don't really like junk food.....

5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1- invest at least 3/4 of it...
2- buy all the stuff that i want... mainly musical instruments
3- renovate the house
4- buy things for my family
5- is 1/4 of a billion even enough for all that? why can't i be a trillionaire?

5 of my bad habits
1- procrastination
2- no time management
3- dilly-dallying/wasting time doing nothing/staring into space
4-LAZY
5- short tempered / impatient

5 places I have lived
1- KL, Malaysia
2- Waterloo, Canada
3- Bentong, Malaysia
4- Reading, & London UK
5- Prague, Czech Republic


5 jobs I've had
1- Child carer
2- Data entry clerk
3 - does holding posts in all sorts of societies count?
4 - being a student.. though i'm not paid to be one.. but when they ask for my occupation, i usually put student...ahahha
5- that's all i can think of

5 people I tag
1- {insert name}
2- {insert name}
3- {insert name}
4- {insert name}
5- {insert name}

Sigh, the things i do when I'm bored.. you know it says a lot.. it's like.. for dogs...they say it's worrisome when the dog chases his tail too much.. i guess I'm one of those... =.=' but i doubt anyone will understand what i'm trying to say anyway...

Today's achievement? Managing on my own to figure out a few more notes to the Sadame song on the violin!! But i can't figure out the rest.. i need meng's help =.=

-Oracl3-

Meng kun arigatou/ Thanks meng..

I'm thanking him, for today's violin lesson..

To make up for my lousy driving skills earlier in the day.. My violin skills aren't that bad... I guess...

At the moment I can play:

• Twinkle, twinkle little star,
  
• Mary had a little lamb (but when I play it, it sounds like Mary's dying lambs...) and
  
• The beginning part of Sadame..

Well, I guess I'll move on from there.. Then again, when I was playing Mary's dying lambs.... my inability to control the bow properly made it touch the other strings, thus adding unwanted and unneeded notes.. which caused me to burst out laughing, as I struggled to finish the song..

Much to Meng's chagrin yet again, as he couldn't find what was so funny, till I told him that the extra notes are like.. the 3 little pigs barging onto Mary's scene...

Imagine this.. As I play Mary had a little lamb (or dying lambs, whichever pleases you..), or upon hearing that song, one should envision, vast fields with Mary and her lambs flittering around.. and then.....

Here comes the sudden extra notes.. and I don't know why, seriously... But I started to imagine the 3 little pigs, invading the scene, causing chaos to Mary and her already dying/flittering lambs.. as the little pigs ran around...

Well, OK, blame it on my over active imagination.. haha... but it was so hard to continue playing, what more finish the song, with that imagery in my head haha... but i digress.. back to the 2 songs, and the part of the 3rd song that I managed to play, albeit, not very smoothly though... it's only been 3-4 days? since i picked up the violin? so i guess, i have to go slow.. i'm no genius after all.. anyway.....

The huge achievement today was.. I somehow managed to hold the violin, in what I assume is the correct position, since I don't have to support it with my hand, and only use my shoulder and chin... so I guess it's the proper way.... Because that's how it's actually meant to be...

My downfall is, my inability to remember the fingering..

I think, I just suck in both driving/parking/3 point turn and music... but not that much in music... i think..

-Oracl3-

Am I too harsh on myself?? 0_O' I should have this kind of attitude towards my studies too then... haha... but somehow, it just doesn't work that way.... :p

Title: Thanks a lot Satoshi kun (Honto ni arigatou satoshi kun).. My parking is really terrible/dreadful... (Watashi no Parukingu/Parking wa cho osoroshii)

Thanks again ccy, for graciously training my driving... I think I did much,much worse today than the other day....

Ermm... driving wise..... i think I'm still fine (I'll leave it to him to decide..)... because there are the rare moments where i drive the auto proton car.... changing gears up.. i.e. from first to second to third.. I'm fine..

Changing down.. is a little bit problematic.. since I lack coordination.. but I managed to do it a few times today.... I think.... That's the problem when you can't multi-task.. it's embarassing to be a female sometimes...

Parking wise (& 3 point turn wise)... i only have two words for myself... "I Suck!!" I'm relatively calm, when it's ccy sitting next to me when driving..when it's my dad or sister.. i feel kind of pressured... don't ask me why.. but i just feel that way.. maybe it's because he just releases such a calm aura?? haha but I digress...

Well today he taught me the 3 point turn.. and parking.. not side parking but the normal parking where you just turn in.....

Now.. for the 3 point turn, i haven't done that since i passed my exams 5 years ago...(and i was relatively good, when i was taking lessons.... but that was on a driving circuit...) as for the parking.. i haven't done it for..... 4 years? or was it 3? and i last did it with the proton..(i.e the auto car)..

But i seriously suck at it.. i don't know which way to turn... can't judge... and worse of all... sort of panicked, when he made me park next to a van, when i was reversing, i was too close... Gah scary for me...

Having to squeeze between cars which are double parked.. is another one of my pet peeves.. err phobia... Sigh... maybe they should invent some sort of stimulation game, for useless drivers like me....

Let's call it... The Training Game for Malaysian Drivers.. where the game involves....

Well the usual stuff, with the Malaysian additions such as: double parked cars... cars, not giving way after you've put on your signal for more than 5 minutes... and avoiding Mat Rempits (illegal racers).... among others...

-Oracl3-

**Note: The things stated in this post, only applies to the majority of males and females.. Not all.. there are some rare ones out there... **

Just yesterday I was reading the papers, more like skimming, when I came to this section.. You know, the.. Teenage problem section..

Where a girl wrote in saying that she is close friends with a guy... and found out that he liked her.. she only liked him as a friend, and later did all sorts of things to make him dislike her, so that he would give up liking her.. but she doesn't want to lose his friendship... so now she is asking what to do....

It's a typical scenario for a girl... when a guy likes a girl who is not interested in him... be very prepared for the cold shoulder, and the invisible man technique... It's cruel.. I know.. And it hurts...

I won't deny it, I've done it myself.. But honestly to a girl, we don't know any other way to deter a guy from giving up on us... If we still treat him like he is there, majority of the guys won't give up.. and just because we are still treating them decently, they think that they still have a chance... and well to us, what ensues later, is no different from harassment...

Sometimes even when the girl already has a boyfriend, these guys just don't know when to quit. So I'm sorry, yet not very sorry for the guys... and also for the girls who are found in this predicament...

Now, what happens if that person is a close friend whom you don't wish to lose? it's a very delicate situation... You could very well lose his friendship, and trust me, I know... (I've lost a friendship over this...)

a lot of friendships have been lost this way, unless it so happens that both parties have an open and understanding mind... which is rare... very rare...

But it still happens sometimes, and most of the time, the majority of guys, who are close to a certain girl, tend to fall for that girl.. it's natural, it happens.. what is the girl to do? some of us, give the cold shoulder.. some drop hints that they aren't interested, or tell the guy that they like someone else..etc... the braver ones, will just say.. sorry, but i only see you as a friend... (but this can only be used if the guy confessed...)

But how many of us girls are brave enough to just say it outright? not many.. it's a tough predicament... it always ends with one side getting hurt... and well.. i think in this case the girl is right... it's better to cut the diseased tree down at the root, when it's still a sapling, rather than to wait for it to become a full grown tree, before cutting it down.. at that time the pain is even more...

I personally believe in doing that, i might get seen as a bitch or a heartless woman, but i think it's the best method... to cut of the infatuation, in whatever way, when it's still a young sapling...

For example.. if this guy is interested, and if i consider him a possible candidate, and I'm single and available... fine, I'll give him a chance, but the problem with me is my analytical skills, which more often than not, tends to be true.. so after going out a few times.. if I notice that he is only suited to be a friend..

I cease all actions, which may indicate that I'm interested, and drop loads of hints that i treat him only as a friend..if he is direct with me, I'll be direct too.. (i.e if he confesses.. if not, it's only hints, as said before.. i won't say anything unless he does.. i don't want to be overly-sensitive...)

If i find that your personality doesn't match with mine.. I'm sorry but it's no point in starting a relationship.. it may seem like i was leading you on, then dropping you like a cold block of ice.. but I'm still your friend... and as i said, it's better that i quash your hopes before you become really serious..

A lot of people don't realise the other parties intention, and always think that party cruel.. but how many of you actually stop to put yourself into that person's shoes? not many.. we only see it on the surface.. like.. "what a bitch.. leading him on, then dropping him like a hot iron..."

It's being cruel to be kind.. why enter into a relationship, that may last maybe a year or two, find out you are incompatible, and break up? and admist all that, cause so much tears and heartbreak. Because mind you, feelings do come up during that time... like.. example, I'm so used to having him around or something.. or that the girl actually likes the guy, vice versa, but the personality really does clash.. it's like you can't have two stubborn or talkative persons in a relationship.. you need a balance (ying and yang).. if they are both moderately stubborn, or talkative i guess it can still survive.. but still.. it's a lot of give and take... all relationships are give and take...

And a problem with most guys are.. that they tend to refuse change, strongly!

thinking "why the hell must i change for her?" and most girls going "oh, he will change for me, because he loves me..", resulting in loads of arguments and tears...

i believe, what you see, is what you get with guys... most people don't realise that it's give and take in a relationship, and take it for granted... it's not only like, sharing the bills.. it's also personality wise... sometimes, we REALLY do have to change our personality for the one we love (be it your lover, family or friends)..

so if you know him to be a selfish, materialistic, ignorant, egoistic brat.. even as just a friend, and IF he shows some interest in you... AND IF you can't take that type of personality, don't even bother about him changing for you, once you are in a relationship, the chances are at least 99% that he won't! (he should change BEFORE ENTERING into a relationship with you!!)

some may argue, that by cutting the tree at the root, you aren't even giving it a chance to grow, who knows, it might actually grow up to be a strong tree... well, i guess that's just the risk, that most of the female community take.. And there are some who take the risk.. actually quite a huge number.. but i guess i'm not included in that statistics haha..

Also, bear in mind that females think with their heart and their head.. if our heart gets shattered it's not easy for us to recover.. I'm not saying that it's easier on the guys.. but as far as i know.. at least 60-70% of guys recover much faster than girls... I don't know why, maybe it's true what they say that men think with their balls and head, or it could be that they weren't really serious...

but i think that because, the majority of men, tend to be more rational creatures than women.. not really being affected by matters of the heart, they will be going.. "what's the point of moping?" and just move on.. unlike women, who would go through again, and again, and again, and again.. and again... and goodness knows, how many more times, they will keep going through it again.. trying to analyse what went wrong...

It's true when we say that men are from Mars and women from Venus.. (but somehow i managed to understand them considerably well, not totally, but i would say well enough, which planet does that make me from? no wonder i can't find a partner.. i need one from the same planet haha )

oh and how do guys reject girls? As far as i know, but i stand corrected...(maybe you guys would like to give your opinions on this..)

they actually do it about the same way as us... i mean, they are flattered and all, that a girl is showing interest in him.. but most men, being more bold, just tells her sorry, and if they really mean it, the girl stops trying after a few times.. unlike men... sheesh... (some men just don't know when to give up.. and well i guess it's because most females are more timid by nature, so they give up easily, then feel depressed, that they aren't good enough etc..... )

Well that is if the girl confesses.. Most, if not all guys are very dense when girls are dropping hints that she likes him... and i guess that explains it all =.='

Some men, do have women stalkers.. and i pity them.. but i digress..

about the scenario mentioned earlier.. i think that girl was immature in handling this.. i've been through that scenario a few rare number of times, and well, I'm still friends with them... at some point i may have given them the cold shoulder when my hints didn't work.. but i always try to go back and patch things up.. and no matter what.. i won't forget their birthdays or things like that, and always make it a point to wish them.. and let them know that as a friend, i will always be there.. but as a friend only, nothing more...

some were smart enough to realise that i only liked him as a friend nothing more.. and well to those who didn't, and, or actually had enough courage to tell me how he felt.. i respect him, it takes a lot of courage to confess, but sorry, I only like you as a friend, and i will tell that to you a thousand millions times, as many as it takes to make you realise...

And well, the most i can do, is to distant myself first, till you get over your feelings.. but i will always welcome you as a friend again, when you have gotten over your feelings, and whoever you find after that, i will sincerely wish you.. all the best :)

but that's just me.. but if it's for the greater good (i.e for my friend's benefit, regardless of situation, and gender.. in the long run, --- meaning it doesn't only apply to such a situation, and it applies to family too).. i don't mind being the bad guy....

Besides.. no matter how much, some of the guys claim that i would make a good girlfriend.. i think I'm only a good friend. About me being a good girlfriend, that would be another matter, and i don't think the poor guy, will be able to stand my demanding character... haha.. I'm doing the male species (homosapience only) a huge favour here haha

-Oracl3-

二十四日四月二零零八年：木曜日

Today since i didn't have any class, and it so happened that Cheese was free... to be.. well our transport minister... (I really should get driving... damn phobia... =.=')

and since we had wanted to watch a movie for quite some time.. we took this opportunity to catch a movie..

so at about 1230.. ccy.. who was part of the party, came over to practise some piano, and that guy learns very fast.. i had only taught him fur elise, like what? 2 days ago, and well his teacher taught him again, and he can play quite well.. Kudos... such a smart student... :)

later at about 1 something.. then it was cheese's turn to arrive... sorry i must have bored him to death.. what with my file transfer, and playing the multiple musical instruments in my home.. i.e. the piano and the violin.. i didn't play the guitar today....

so at 2, we left my house to pick up the girls (mel and xian ai) and headed off to BU to catch.. any movie that was available at that time...

we were supposed to meet meng there..but he came like.. 10-15 minutes before our movie which was at..3pm..

what movie did we watch? well the jet li - jackie chan movie... --> The Forbidden Kingdom...

It's kind of a cliché story.. But if you know some of the old chinese stories/legends, you would have found it really amusing.. they put in characters like:

• The Monkey King,@Son Goku@Sun Wusun aka Jet Li
  
• One of the eight immortals, Lu the Taoist priest aka Jackie Chan
• The Bride With White Hair.. Honestly, i don't know what it is in English, but in mandarin it is Bai Fa Mo Ni.. 白髮魔女 (Direct translation, White hair.. Demoness? ). aka Li Bing Bing
• The Jade emperor, and empress.. though they played a very small role
• The Pangolin Jade hairpin of the empress... Which holds magical powers.. Here in the movie it was used to kill an immortal.. I'm not sure, if it was capable of doing that..
• Little sparrow from... I don't' know.. that name is very common haha
  

Ermm I can't remember what else.. But there was some reference to the old Chinese myths.. Which they changed a little here and there.. Like with the Monkey King... The original myth has it that the goddess of mercy, imprisoned him under a mountain, till the monk.. (don't know how to say his name in English) came a long and started the journey to the west..

I believe the jade hairpin mentioned in the movie, is the magical one that belonged to the jade empress.. in the myth, it was said that an immortal, having trouble fighting a beast with hard scales in the human world needed that hairpin to kill the creature, and end it's destruction of the human world.. so that immortal, i forgot which one, tricked a palace maiden, in the jade empress, palace, to fall in love with him and steal the hairpin for him.. after that, he killed the creature, and lived with the maid as husband and wife for a hundred days.. or was it years.. and later returned the hairpin to the empress.. after that i don't know what happened to him..

About the 8 immortals Lu, the Taoist priest,i don't remember him being a drunk..but i thought he was the one carrying the eight jade boards... but i digress, i can't really remember the story...

The bride with white hair.. is a novel... which was made into a movie featuring the late leslie cheung, and Bridgette Lin as the Demoness.. it was about a women so in love with a man, and when he betrayed her or something.. her grief became so great that her hair turned white.. i can't really remember it.. but i think she exacted vengeance on all men, using her hair to kill.. i can't remember what happened to her in the end...

but that's about how much I can associate with the Chinese stories...

You know it felt kind of weird to have the story being told in English.. I think I would have preferred it in Chinese.. but it was something sort of new...

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The movie was hilarious.. and the fighting was good.. it's really a movie worth to watch, I was laughing here and there.. though I must say that the storyline was very, VERY cliché.. but the humour and the fighting make up for it...

Regarding my title "I laughed when she died" some of you may think I'm some cold hearted sadist or something.. but this is the second time that I've laughed in the cinema when someone was dying...

The first was in Star Wars.. i can't remember which one, but it was when Anakin was still a kid, and his mom was dying... The movie was boring me to hell.. and well iIhad a friend sleeping in another part of the cinema, another stuffing himself with popcorn, and me playing snake on my friend's Nokia handphone..

And when Anakin's mom was dying... my friend who was munching on popcorn i.e. Eugene.. made me laugh.. Anakin's mom was going "I love... i love...."

OK, we all know that she is going to say "I love you" to her son.. but Eugene goes and say.. "What?... I love popcorn?" the character was dragging it too long... with her" i love.. i love.." but not saying the "you".. Therefore the "popcorn" fit in so well, that i was laughing so hard... earning the glares of other movie goers..

I'm really sorry, i didn't do that on purpose.... =.=' it's Eugene's fault, really... but i digress..

For this movie.. The Forbidden Kingdom.. it's no one's fault.. i just burst into contained laughter (I think it was still loud, but i covered my mouth.. thus contained?).. It happened when the main character.. the western boy, Jason... aka the "hero" of the story..and the girl he liked.. Golden Sparrow.. was dying..

She was dying in his arms... He managed to exact revenge for her... and well was clutching her so close.. he looked like he was about to kiss her.. apparently the other girls were going "just kiss her already" and well, I was going "oh, he's going to kiss her" (but sceptical that he would be able to, hey as I said... it's cliché plus she is dying.. If i'm dying, the last thing on my mind would be to kiss some guy... =.=') when.....

She just dies.. and i burst into laughter.. much to meng's chagrin.. he was like.. "you sadist.. the girl just died, and you are laughing....."

Well, i found it so funny... imagine you are about to kiss this girl, and she just dies.. it's like.. how do i explain it decently... ermm... okay, i can't, so what the heck... it's like someone is having sex with you, and just before you reach your orgasm he stops... Just right, at that crucial second... you know...?

it's like so potong steam, no? just being cut off like that? haha.. but oh well... so yeah, i laughed when the character was dying.. but maybe because I knew it was cliché, i knew he was going to meet her again later.. so yeah.. there you have it... a feel good cliché movie, which is still worth watching for the humour and the fight scenes..

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I enjoyed myself today :)

-Oracl3-

*Woah!! this is my 400th post..it's amazing how much i write.. or well, how much nonsense i post haha :p*

First off, I would like to say welcome home to Meng!! おかいりなさい[Okairinasai - welcome home]

well my friends are lacking, since all of my close friends have been kidnapped by overseas education, if not for the government policies, and the fact that IF we had more universities, such a thing wouldn't have happened but i digress..

Anyway 22nd of April 2008.. today is apparently Earth appreciation day or something.. So we should wear green to commemorate it.. but i didn't see many wearing it, though I did.. I didn't have any green blouses available to wear save for one, it was a pretty blouse.. but again i digress...

Today 22nd april 2008, started out with me, waking up in the morning... to go for breakfast with Chee Yong, and he generously offered to train my driving skills, after i expressed my wish to get over my phobia (see phobia is useless..) of driving, and that I wish to drive a manual car, to overcome this fear..

Why a manual car? well, i believe that if you can master a manual car, other cars are all just a piece of cake... so why not my own car? well let's see.. one of the car.. which I now believe to be the cause of my phobia.. has no power steering, is made totally or at least 90% of iron, and is heavy like hell.. it's horrible trying to drive that car..

The other car, has power steering, but i think it's kind of big, besides, that car is sort of like my dad's "Precious" in other words.. untouchable...

So anyway, after breakfast, he found an area with not so many cars for me, and let me drive around.. for a person who hasn't drove manual for 4 years.. make that 5, since the day i passed my driving test.. this is a HUGE achievement for me.. :)

*i thought that i would get a heart attack, and he was scared i would give him a heart attack? hahah but it turned out okay.. thanks satoshi kun :)*

And I'm proud to say, that I believe that i did quite well, for someone who hasn't touched a manual car since i passed my driving test.. unless you count.. driving into the parking lot at sungkai (near ipoh)?

so after about an hour of driving, and learning balancing.. I learnt something new today :) to do balancing without the handbrake... i went home, and tried to study for a while..and failed... =.='

I was checking my mail, when meng came by.. he arrived on Sunday according to his cousin Kar Sing (he told me too when he would be arriving, but i didn't know the time..), and well contacted me soon after.. so he dropped by today at about 2.

before this.. i requested that he help me buy some bodybutter from body shop and to teach me the violin.. he's such a gracious friend *hugz*, not only did he present the body butter to me (i wanted to pay him for it..).. he patiently taught me the violin...

I learnt 2 songs today... Mary had a little lamb, and twinkle, twinkle little star :p

well, i know those are nursery songs, but hey it wasn't easy to play... and well in return, i played the guitar for him, and got him somehow addicted to タイヨウのうた(Taiyou no uta - song to the sun, by Kaoru Amane/ Sawajiri Erika.. from a Japanese drama of the same name)

After that, he even took me out for dinner at the Secret Recipe near my place before dropping me off at the train station so that i could go to class.. Such a nice friend right? *hugz*

well not to say that the others aren't nice.. :)

Satoshi kun is super nice too, risking his life to teach me driving haha.. ok, ok, my driving isn't that bad la... i guess.. :p but it takes real courage and trust to sit in the car with a friend who is learning/ relearning to drive.. :) It's rare to find people that trust you so much :) usually you would just break out in cold fear and sweat.. like how i did, when Thomas, said that he would drive Hoc Mun's car, a few years back.. that was before Thomas got his license though...

so, we (Meng & I) chatted and caught up, and promised to hang out more whenever he and I have the time.. he's only back for less than 2 weeks.. and well, this was my first time seeing him after 2 years.. the last time i saw him was when he came to send me off, the day i left for the UK.

Well he is a dear friend, and among one of the most loved ones.. :)

and that's all for today.. just finished the post on Malaysia's laws, and i actually just got back from class, about an hour ago.. so am tired.. going to shower.. and well, we will see what i try to do later :p

-Oracl3-

P/S: Sigh, i dread the day that they get kidnapped by Mr. Education again... :(

Due to a friend saying that he doesn't know what is the Sedition Act.. i took it upon myself to educate him, my friends and other Malaysians, because, even if you are ignorant as to the existence of the Act, you can still be caught under it, and most likely held under the Internal Security Act, where they can just curb you of your freedom with no fair trail...

That's why i say we should incorporate the Humans Right Act 1996, as i believe that everyone should be innocent till proven guilty, and therefore, all humans should be given a fair trail(article 6).. But I digress, as this is up to the government anyway, not me...

(I'm amazed i still remember my Humans Rights Act stuff.. haha... )

Sedition Act (wikipedia)

The sedition act... as can be seen from the word sedition. means conduct or speech inclining people to rebel against an authority of a state or monarch...

Now before I continue.. No, this act does not encourage you to say things which ruins the image of the government or monarch.. it's the contrary..

It's to curb those who commit sedition...

If you click on the link, you can get the history of it.. so I don't really need to say much, except that it was introduced by the British.. with the intent of curbing opposition rule, and this Act, remained all the way into Malaysia's independence....

So basically if you say anything, defamatory, or which sounds accusing, or which has the slightest inkling of dissing the government and the monarchy, they can capture you and place you under arrest... as the meaning of the word sedition suggests, as long as you do anything or say anything, with the intent to oppose the government and, or the monarchy, they will get you under the act.. Why do you think so many politicians from DAP, PAS, PKR etc... (the opposition in Parliament) were captured?

According to RPK (Malaysia Today) Even Muslims that converted into Christianity are being held.... but i think that one is under the ISA and not the Sedition Act....

Which makes me wonder, how many bloggers will they have to catch? But I digress.. I don't want my freedom curbed just because I decided to express my freedom of speech... (we need article 10 of the HRA..freedom of speech!!)

But that doesn't mean I have nothing to say about this issue... But i would rather say it verbally (besides i'm not a prominent person with a reputation... I doubt that they will catch me? hopefully...). so that there is no evidence.. though actually under the ISA they don't need evidence to imprison you... they actually imprison you under the ISA because they don't have enough evidence.... or they could have brought you to court.. right?? Again I digress...

before i end, a little information about the:

Internal Security Act

Taken from wikipedia, because I'm lazy, the rest of the article is there, so click on the link..
--> The Internal Security Act 1960 (ISA) (Malay: Akta Keselamatan Dalam Negeri) is a preventive detention law in force in Malaysia. The legislation was inherited by Malaysia after it gained independence from Britain in 1957. In essence, it allows for the arrest of any person without the need for trial in certain defined circumstances. Malaysia is one of the few countries in the world whose Constitution allows for preventive detention during peacetime without safeguards that elsewhere are understood to be basic requirements for protecting fundamental human rights.

I just got back from class.. and am going to shower and hit the sack early...

So there you have it.. Remember ignorance is not a plea... it won't get you anywhere by pleading ignorance.. It's just like those poor victims.. who were asked to carry drugs, you know those stories in the newspaper where girls are offered high paying jobs overseas, and when they are about to leave, are handed over something by their "employers" to bring over, which usually contain drugs..

Though those girl plead ignorance, and i believe, most if not all are innocent.. it doesn't make a difference, they are still punished, and some are facing the death sentence... It makes no difference, because the law is strict.. (Dangerous Drug Act) it gives no room for negotiations... Imagine if the real drug dealer says that he is ignorant, and because of that he gets away scot free.. thus the law has no choice...

So girls and guys, becareful of such offers, NEVER, EVER carry something for someone, when travelling.. even if you know the person, make sure you check the item first, before you consider bringing it aboard an airplane for them...

-Oracl3-

EDITED: the lower part

As usual, for my independent news, my favourite is Raja Petra's as i said, his views are almost similar to mine..

anyway, i haven't had the time lately, but when i went today, i was greeted with this post about ketuanan melayu, which was actually originally posted on another site 4 years ago..

-->Father and son debate revisited

Well you can sort of see, it looks like one letter is written by the older generation and the other by the new generation.. I think it's true.. it's an insult to the Malays to say that they won't get their education if not for the special rights.. come to think of it.. this special rights thing seems to really insult the Malays..

It's like saying they can't do anything without the government... and as Raja Petra said, it's like giving them the milk bottle and NOT weaning them off it..

The Malays aren't stupid.. they are smart, and they are capable.. maybe 50 years ago, most of them were ignorant farmers.. so we needed the special rights, to raise their level of awareness... but we no longer need it today, we are being more and more educated.. to keep this special rights thing, is like insulting them.. though others may feel different.. I mean competition is good for them, when you have no competition and everything falls into your lap, you take it for granted and become lazy.. what happens is the standards of education drop...

But come on, look at the Chinese community, they had to strive for everything on their own, and they get so far.. if you want the Malay community to evolve into something better, you have to let them learn how to get up and walk on their own, if not they will never learn how to run, if you keep them in a baby chair forever..

it's not that they can't walk on their own... it's they aren't allowed too, for the interests and greed of certain people.....

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Let's cut this racial crap
Malaysia should adopt the Human's Right Act from the UK..

Art 6 of the HRA 1996 right to a free trail..

Why can't we have this??

ISA should be abolished or at the very least amended.. if it is true that Muslims who converted out of the religion are being held under the act.. where is the justice? read the comment section of the post.. the grasshopper and the ant.. personally that's what is really happening in this country, it's suffering from a brain drain and well everything else...

Edit: i forgot to mention that the prisoners under the ISA are somewhat mistreated i guess.. i mean heck RPK was beaten in front of his wife...

This is where Article 3 of the HRA should come in as well... no demeaning treatment, or torture...

Malaysia, oh Malaysia.. Please adopt the HRA...

So that we can at least use Article 10 HRA, freedom of speech and press...


-Oracl3-

Something else I found in the folder... Hopes it provides some encouragement to others to speak their voice out, and also it gives us some insight as well, as it touches on racism, democracy, and government interests...

Well whatever it is, I just thought to share...

Against Discouragement
by Howard Zinn

In 1963, historian Howard Zinn was fired from Spelman College, where he was chair of the History Department, because of his civil rights activities. This year (2005), he was invited back to give the commencement address. Here is the text of that speech, given on May 15, 2005.

I am deeply honoured to be invited back to Spelman after 42 years. I would like to thank the faculty adn trustee who voted to invtie me, and especially your president, Dr. Beverly Tatum. And it is a special privilege to be here with Diahann Carroll and Virginia Davis Floyd.

But this is your day - the students graduating today. It's a happy day for yo and your families. I know you have your own hopes for the future, so it may be a little presumptuous for me to tell you what hopes I have for you, but they are exactly the same one that I have for my grandchildren.

My first hope is that you will not be too discouraged by the way the world looks at this moment. it is easy to be discouraged, because our nation is at war - still another war, war after war - and our government seems determined to expand its empire even if it costs the lives of tens of thousands of human beings. There is poverty in this country, and homelessness, and people without health care, and crowded classrooms, but our government, which has trillions of dollars to spend, is spending its wealth on war. There are a billion people in Africa, Asia, Latin America and the Middle East who need clean water and medicine to deal with malaria and tuberculosis and AIDS, but our government which has thousands of nuclear weapons, is experimenting with even more deadly nuclear weapons. Yes, it is easy to be discouraged by all that.

But let me tell you why, in spite of what I have just described, you must not be discouraged.

I want to remind you that, fifty years ago, racial segregation here in the South was entrenched as tightly as apartheid in South Africa. The national government, even with liberal presidents like Kennedy and Johnson in office, was looking the other way while black people were beaten and killed and died the opportunity to vote. So black people in the South decided that had to do something by themselves. They boycotted and sat in and picketed and demonstrated, and were beaten and jailed, and some were killed, but their cries for freedom were soon heard all over the nation and around the world, and the President and Congress finally did what they previously failed to do - enforce the 14th and 15th Amendments to the Constitution. Many people had said: The South will never change. But it did change, IT changed because ordinary people organized and took risks and challenged the system and would not give up. That's when democracy came alive.

I want to remind you also that when the war in Vietnam was going on, and young Americans were dying and coming home paralysed, and our government was bombing the villages of Vietnam - bombing schools and hospitals and killing ordinary people in huge numbers - it looked hopeless to try to stop the war. But just as in the Southern movement, people began to protest and soon it caught on. IT was a national movement. Soldiers were coming back and denouncing the war, and young people were refusing to join the military, and the war had to end.

The lesson of that history is that you must not despair, that if you are right, and you persist, things will change. The government may try to deceive the people, and the newspapers and television may do the same, but the truth has a way of coming out. The truth has a power greater than a hundred lies. I know you have practical things to do - to get jobs and get married and have children. You may become prosperous and be considered a success in the way our society defines success, by wealth and standing and prestige. But that is not enough for a good life.

Remember Tolstoy's story, "The Death of Ivan Illych." A man on his deathbed reflects on his life, how he has done everything right, obeyed the rules, become a judge, married, had children, and is looked upon as a success. Yet, in his last hours, he wonders why he feels a failure. After becoming a famous novelist, Tolstoy himself had decided that this was not enough, that he must speak out against the treatment of the Russian peasants, that he must write against war and militarism.

My hope is that whatever you do to make a good life for yourself - whether you become a teacher, or social worker, or business person, opr lawyer, or poet, or scientist - you will devote part of your life to making this a better world for your children, for all children. My hope is that your generation will demand an end of war, that your generation will do something that has not yet been done in history and wipe out the national boundaries that separates us from other human beings on this earth.

Recently I saw a photo on the front page of the New York Times which I cannot get out of my mind. It showed ordinary Americans sitting chairs on the southern border of Arizona, facing Mexico. they were holding guns and tehy were looking for Mexicans who might be trying to cross the border into the United States. This was horrifying to me - the realization that in the 21st century fo what we call "civilization", we have carved up what we claim is one world into 200 artificially created entities we call "nations" and are ready to kill anyone who crosses a boundary.

Is not nationalism - that devotion to a flag, an anthem, a boundary, so fierce it leads to murder - one of the great evils of our time, along with racism, along with religious hared? These ways of thinking, cultivated, nurtured, indoctrinated from childhood on, have been useful to those in power, deadly for those out of power.

Here in the United States, we are brought up to believe that our nation is different from others, an exception in the world, uniquely moral; that we expand into other lands in order to bring civilization, liberty, democracy. But if you know some histroy you know that's not true. IF you know some history, you know we massacred Indians on this continent, invaded Mexico, sent armies into Cuba and the Philippines. We killed huge numbers of people, and we did not bring them democracy or liberty, We did not go into Vietnam to bring democracy; we did not invade Panama to stop the drug trade; we did not invade Afghanistan and Iraq to stop terrorism. Our aims were the aims of the other empires of world history - more profit for corporations, more power for the politicians.

The poets and artists among us seem to have a clearer understanding of the disease of nationalism. Perhaps the black poets especially are less enthralled with the virtues of American "liberty" and "democracy", their people having enjoyed so little of it. The great African - American poet Langston Hughes addressed his country as follows:

You really haven't been a virgin for so long.
It's ludicrous to keep up the pretext

You've slept with all the big powers
In military uniforms
And yuo've taken the sweet life
Of all the little brown fellows.

Being one fo the world's big vampires,
Why don't you come on out and say so
Like Japan, and England, and France,
And all the other nymphomaniacs of power

I am a veteran of the Second World War. That was considered a "good war", but I have come to the conclusion that war solves no fundamental problems and only leads to more wars. War poisons the minds of soldiers, leads them to kill and torture, and poisons the soul of the nation.

My hope is that your generation will demand that your children be brought up in a world without war. If we want a world in which the people of all countries are brothers and sisters, if the children all over the world are considered as our children, then war - in which children are always the greatest casualties - cannot be accepted as a way of solving problems.

I was on the faculty of Spelman College for 7 years, from 1956 to 1963. IT was a heart warming time, because the friends we made in those years have remained our friends all these years. My wife Roslyn and I and our two children lived on campus. sometimes when we went into town, white people would ask: How is it to be living in the black community? It was hard to explain. But we knew this - that down town Atlanta we felt as we were in alien territory, and when we came back to the Spelman campus, we felt that we were at home.

Those years at Spelman were the most exciting of my life, the most educational certainly. I learned more from my students than they learned from me. Those were the years of the great movement in the South against racial segregation, and I became involved in that in Atlanta, n Albany, Georgia, in Selma, Alabama, in Hattiesburg, Mississippi, and Greenwood, and Itta Bena and Jackson. I learned something about democracy : that it does not come from the government, from on hight, it comes from people getting together and struggling for justice. I learned about race. I learned something that any intelligent person realizes at a certain point - that race is a manufactured thing, an artificial thing, and while ace does matter (as Cornell West has written), it only matters because certain people want it to matter, just as nationalism is something artificial,. I learned that what really matters is that all of us- of whatever so-called race and so-called nationality - are human beings and should cherish one another.

I was lucky to be at Spelman at a time when I could watch a marvellous transformation in my students, who were so polite, so quiet, and then suddenly they were leaving campus and going into town, and sitting in, and being arested, and then coming out of jail full of fire and rebellion. You can read all about that in Harry LEfever's book: Undaunted by the Fight. One day Marian Wright (Now Marian Wright Edelman), who was my student at Spelman, and was one of the first arrested in the Atlanta sit-ins, came to our house on campus to show us a petition she was about to put on the bulletin board of her dormitory. The heading on the petition epitomized the transformation taking place at Spelman College. Marian had written on top of the petition: "Young ladies who can picket, please sign below."

My hope is that you will not be content jsut to be successful in the way our society measures success; that you will not obey the rules, when the rules are unjust; that you will act out of the courage that i know is in you. There are wonderful people, black, and white, who are models. I don't mean African-Americans like Condoleezza Rice, or Colin Powell, or C;arent Thomas, who have become servants of the rich and powerful. I mean W.E.B. DuBois and Martyn Luther King and Malcom X and Marian Wright Edelman, And James Baldwin and Josephine Baker and good white fold, too, who defied the establishment to work for peace and justice.

Another of my students at Spelman, Alice Walker, who, like Marian, has remained out friend all these years, came from a tenant farmer's family in Eatonton, Georgia, and ebcame a famous writer. In one of her first published poems, she wrote:

It is true -
I've always loved
the daring ones
Like the black young man
Who tried to crash all barriers at once,

Wanted to swim at a white beach (In akabama) nude.

I am not suggesting you go that far, but you can help to break down barriers, of race certainly, but also of nationalism; that you do what you can - you don't have to do something heroic, just something, to join with millions of others who will just do something, because all of those something, at certain points of history, come together, and make the world better.

The marvellous African-American writer Zora Neale Hurston, who wouldn't do what white people wanted her to do, who wouldn't do what black people wanted her to do, who insisted on ebing herself, said that her mother advised her: Leap for the sun - you may not reach it, but at least you get off the ground.

By being here today, you are already standing on your toes, ready to leap. My hope for you is a good life

*Howard Zinn is the author with Anthony Arnove of the just published of a People's History of the United States (Seven Stories Press) and of the international best selling People's History of the Unites States

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I think that this should be the last thing that I type out for stuff that came from my search and rescue mission.. the rest, are well, too long to type up I guess, and I have no interest to archive them, So I guess that is all..

I chose to type up this article, because it is related somewhat to our own country.. that race is artificial, nationalism is also artificial, it was created by the politicians to garner more power..
if not why else will they be playing this racist game for 50 years? and go on saying that (as reported on Malaysia today) united malays is like the nation being united... ? I was kind of shocked reading that... but i digress to comment, as i am already tired from typing up the speech, and also well, if i ever do my political related post, it will be related to that anyway....

Another thing is, this post is already long enough thanks to the speech... So that's all..it's already 1030pm.. and i don't know why i feel so tired today, so am signing off for now..

-Oracl3-

A poem that I got when I went for the youth programme

To the Filipino Youth
(A La Juventud Filipina)

Theme: "Grow, O Timid Flower."

Hold high the brow serene.
O youth, where now you stand;
Let the bright Sheen,
Of your grace be seen,
Fair hope of my fatherland!

Come now. thou genius grand,
And bring down inspiration;
With thy might hand,
Swifter than the wind's volation,
Raise the eager mind to higher station.

Come down with pleasing light,
Of art and science to the flight,
O youth, and there untie
The chains that heavy lie,
Your spirit free to blight.

See how in flaming zone,
Amid the shadows thrown,
The Spainard's holy hand
A crown's resplendent band
Proffers to this Indian land.

Thou, who now wouldst rise
On wings of rich emprise,
Seeking from the Olympian skies
Songs of the sweetest strain,
Softer than ambrosial rain;

Thou, whose voice divine
Rivals Philomel's refrain
And with varied line
Through the night benign
Frees mortality from pain;

Thou, who by sharp strife
Wakest thy mind to life;
And the memory bright
Of thy genius' light
Makest immortal in its strength;

And thou, in accents clear
Of Phoebus, to Apelles dear;
Or by brush's magic art
Takest from nature's store a part
To fix it on the simple canvas' length;

Go forth and then the sacred fire
Of thy genius to the laurel may aspire;
To spread around the fame,
And in victory acclaim;
through wider spheres the human name.

Day, O happy day,
Fair Filipinas, for thy land!
So bless the Power today
That places in thy way
This facour and this fortune grand

Written in 1879 by Jose Rizal, Translated by Charles E. Derbyshire.

I don't really recall us going through this poem during the programme, but it was in the folder with the rest of the stuff from the programme.. but oh well, it seemed nice, so i shared..

-Oracl3-

It's a Sunday afternoon, I just got back from class (am tired obviously...), had a little food with my mom, and was browsing the papers...

When suddenly she passed me a ring....

Now before I begin, here is the background story....

4-5 years ago, I went to Tomei (a gold shop) with my sister to buy a white gold ring... it was just something cheap...

And well I bought it for my 4th finger on the left hand, yes the finger we would put our wedding ring on.. I don't know why... but I just like the idea of having a ring on that finger.. since like.. eons ago.. I seriously don't know why... It's not like I'm itching to get hitched or something...

So ya, it was a ring i bought with my own allowance..

fast forward to the future.. 2 years later.. my mom, being so blur as she is.. somehow, miraculously misplaced her wedding ring.
Of all things...

Yes she was upset.. heck, even I was upset!! that ring has a real sentimental value to it..
And well.. we all know how it feels to lose something like that..
We searched, Trust me, we did..

So the story begins..

After that... I left for the UK, MY ring in tow, and worn on the sacred finger, to repel guys away from me.. Though in the end, those that did end up knowing me, found out I was single.. Admist the , "No, I'm not married, I just wear this for fun"...
I'm not lesbian okay.
I just don't show much interest.... Maybe I'll later.. or something...

Anyway, I really don't want to start a relationship overseas.. not when I'll be returning home in less than a year...

during my graduation on July 07.. My mom hijacked my ring, and has been wearing it ever since.. till today....

so now that we are back in the present, we shall therefore continue with where i left off..

... When suddenly she passed me a ring..

And asked me to take a look inside of the ring, at the engraving..

I did, and read it out to her....
"10, 375 and something i don't know"

She gave me a puzzled look..
".........."

and said
"look again.."

I did..

and asked her.. what do you want me to look for..

"There's KH Cheong engraved there"

"........, KH Cheong?...."

"Yes, look again... "

"errr, all i see is the ring size, the percentage of the metal, and err something i can't read?"

She comes nearer to me, and holds the ring in my hand and points..

"No, no, see, the design also.. doesn't it look like my ring..."

"...No it doesn't.. This is MY ring... "

"No.. It's not, look carefully..."

"No matter how i look at it, it's mine.. I bought this with my own allowance in BU, Tomei.. cost me a 100 bucks..."

"No..it's not, this is My Ring.. " (She thinks it's the one she lost..)

"Are you on hallucinogens? (i was seriously worried here..) Look it's obviously my ring... not yours.... see.. it doesn't have your husband's name on it, anywhere. Neither did I engrave MY ring, why would I even engrave my father's name on MY ring?!"

"No, it's my ring la, see the design... "

Exasperated, that she had really gone senile or something.. I called for my dad to loan me his ring, to compare the designs.. they are different mind you.. absolutely different..

"Why do you want my ring for?" He proceeds to remove his ring..

"To show mom somthing.."

".....I can't take it off..."
I think He got a little fat or something from the time he married my mom... The ring couldn't be removed unless he uses a lubricant... which was too troublesome..

"..... never mind then...."

As i exited the store room which my dad was cleaning...

"It's my ring i tell you...." (She's so stubborn...)

"For heaven's sake wear your glasses... "

She heads on to grab her specs...

"It's mine wert...."

"Which part of it looks like yours?? I'm telling you, that is mine... MINE!!!"

"Cannot be... I put yours back into your jewellery box, the one your brother gave you"

And then I realised...
here I was worried that she had lost her mind.. when actually.. She had found it...after 2 years...

"Oh my god!! you put YOUR ring into my box??!! It's definitely your ring in my box.. What on earth are you thinking.."

Stomps up the stairs to get to the said jewellery box....

And as expected....

"This isn't my ring!! It's yours for crying out loud.. SEE!! Your dearly beloved (well i sort of directly translated from chinese.. 你親愛的老公 ... For a banana, i don't know why i was thinking that way...) husband's name is engraved here.. right here... That's my ring you are holding" Said while going down the stairs..

She really doesn't give up..

"Cannot be... "Squints at the given ring..

"See, his name is there.. your beloved husband's name is right there...."

"..................... Heheh... oh so it's this one.. but they look a like... Wonder how come I put my ring into your box instead...."

"......... And here i was afraid that you were either senile, or under hallucinogens.."

(this was based on the fact that i didn't know YET, that she had found her ring.. so i thought she was imagining things, seeing that these past 2 years she harped so much about it.. I thought she finally lost some bolts.... )

My mom's reaction? -->

as for me? -->

How on earth did she mix them up? My only explanation was that, she was wearing my ring for so long, that she started to think it's hers.. and since she is always so absent minded..it's no surprise if that's true...

Well the conversation that ensued later was where it was found... Apparently my dad found it.. while cleaning up, in a most unlikely place.. a place which my mom, didn't approach at the time of the ring's disappearance, but it's appearance there can be explained by assumption and logic.....

That's why I said, two posts below (or is it only one post?) this that those white ants are a blessing in disguise... I get to throw away old accumulative sentimental rubbish, and my dad found my mom's wedding ring... Isn't it like a Korean/Taiwanese drama? The Girl loses the ring, and her lover finds it back for her.....

And also, those white ants have already contributed to 3 posts on my blog today.. aren't they a real blessing... haha



-Oracl3-

So damn hot la the weather...