The smooth surface,
Almost mirror like,
Watching it unknowingly,
I entered its flow,
Unconsciously submerged by it,
Fighting to grasp the sky,
Before being pulled down again,
Following it’s flow,
Unable to turn back,
The road is set;
I shall head to sea,
Can you see the future?
It’s unpredictable
✿Oracl3✿
the world would be so much better if: 1. people used their signals when changing lanes while driving 2. stick to their own bloody lanes while driving!! our malaysian roads are wide enough for that, stop enroaching into other people's lane or driving in the middle of the highway! 3. respect your space and distance of your car (Jack ass mercedes, i know you are an old car.. but don't you dare come so near my car!) 4. do their work properly..... (everyone's blur on this. .disaster waiting to happen! omg!! ORZ)
I know that, I've got a short temper, am impatient, am a somewhat slow learner etc.
but I also do know that I try to appreciate whatever I have, like family and friends, and that I do try to control my temper, and to be hardworking to make up for the slow learning process...
i haven't posted anything here since 2011, and when i decided to retrieve some links i saved on this blog, i noticed that i have 3 posts about linked in, something about pending notifications and crap like that.. what the fuck? since when did linked in get permission to use my blog to post any damn thing??? arghhh.... stupidity...
that's why the digital world is such a pain sometimes.. sigh
excuse me? since you acknowledge that i have more work, then increase my pay!
also, i may not have been doing your work, but believe it or not, i was still working on the road, using my own phone bill.. 400 km away from the office and i'm still working! i am so going to claim from the office! increase my pay first before you talk so much!
i was reviewing documents and checking the law on my phone, and advising my colleague on what to reply to the client.... so, saying i can't up and go like that... if i happened to be hospitalised (touch wood), what are you going to do?? is there no one else that can do my work? sheesh not like you can't replace me right? well brace yourself, with this type of attitude and monkey pay, don't expect me to stick around long.. start looking for a replacement dude!
from the 26th of april 2010 (Sunday) till the 2nd of May 2010 (Sunday) i was in China with my family and my aunts (from my mum's side) on a tour...well holiday..
overall it was nice... scenery was beautiful... food was ok, learnt new things bout the culture... they have 52 minority tribes.. and wow... the women wear the pants in some of those tribes, (and the men.. are damn lucky...house husbands... imagine..)
and there's a well... really interesting tribe... (men didn't need to take responsibility at all,) haha... weather was okay too.. loved the cool/cold weather.. well downside? with china... you know it's the toilets... then again back home here we have really disgusting toilets too... so what the heck... at least 50% of the toilets we went too were okay.. i notice they have a problem with flushing.. it's smelly and disgusting, cause they can't flush... water system has a huge problem =.='
souvenir wise it was really difficult to buy anything.. why? well, cause everything is made in China, you can buy it back home... as for the food stuff.. i went to kun ming, dali, li jiang, and one more place... can't really remember.. but there was a hot spring there? haha... i guess that's what you get when you mandarin is only 40% usable??
anyway... i couldn't buy tidbits either for my colleagues, cause it was almost all yak meat... which i don't think my indian colleagues can eat, cause it's like a cow?? and my muslim colleagues either.. cause i'm not sure if it's halal.... =.=' so in the end i bought whatever i could... some preserved... sourish, saltish thing.. (shin mui kind of thing...)
also along the way i didn't really get quite a number of explanation from the guide, and had to rely on the tour leader and relatives to explain what was going on... but in the general sense... i got what was going on.... so guess it was ok?
but on the 2nd day? i think.. i fell ill.. it was a bit too cold for me.. and smart ass me, didn't wear a jacket to sleep. so i practically freezed to death... and caught the cold.. arghh suffering... especially when i had to fly (from li jian to kun ming... and the worse was kun ming to home..)
it was so dry, my throat ended up so damn sore, i almost lost my voice.. and my skin broke out in rashes, cause it was so damn dry... (either it;s the dryiness or the flu medicine.. which i think could be the medicaiton...cause i didn't get this rash in hte UK) and am still suffering the effects now as i sit here, sweating like a pig here typing this... (cause i got used to their weather, ours is too hot now.. practically bathing in sweat ) =.='
so again, the scenery was really beautiful, especially at the lake and mountain shall upload to Face book when i've the time. oh yeah, i made a new friend too... it's nice :)
but a little weird thing happened.. on friday night (30 april 2010), i dreamt that my boss was unhappy bout something, and then after that he seemed happy.. =.=' (it was like, he was unhappy i wasn't in the office? and happy again when i was back in - guess that's cause i'm back to do the work...?? =.=' i get that feeling.... i swear honest to god, it really felt like he was happy again in the dream cause i was there to do the work... =.=' weird right?)
so when i got home on the 2nd of may (at night, tired like hell, and still down with the cold...not really done unpacking...) you know that naggy feeling you get??
so okay, i check my email, and i see something from him... a number of his comments.... and you know.. (i'm a really impatient person), i don't profess to be a genius.. i admit i learn slow... and i'm a visual learner.. that's why i learn faster when i've something to read/compare, like a text book, or a sample document... (lately my attention span is quite short too.. and usually i don't like those really thick text books anyway, but the simple straightforward books)
so yes, i don't like the damn thing either, and would like to get it done and over with too.. i didn't stay till 11pm on the 23rd of april to finish it so that i had to redo it/add on to it, and make my dad have to come all the way down to the office to pick me up, cause it was 11pm and no one could drop me at the train station.
so thank you very much for your comments. i've been doing the work from the start, and forgive me, but my brain really can't process anymore, i see it as it is.... and you as a fresh brain... well thank you for your comments............................................. really.......... i don't know if it's inexperience or what.. but i really couldn't pick out the points you did..=.='
anyway, another point of annoyance.... oh wait.. ermm, let's say the good stuff first... a nice old malaysian chinese man... okay not that old, maybe bout my dad's age, let me cut the line, so that i could board the plane with my family.... thank you nice chinese man...
on the other hand, the annoying point? was this malay man... maybe about... late 30's? or mid 40's? was an ass.... when the plane landed and people were disembarking, he was pushing me trying to get into the lane to get out.... hello?? you really shouldn't wear sunglasses in a plane on a night/evening flight, cause obviously you can't see that the lane between the seats was so congested with people, that i couldn't get out either, so all your idiotic pushing was for naught....
i don't give a shit if you are going to wet your pants there, you were just plain rude, so a big no thank you to your rudeness you middle aged malay man, and for irritating me, after a sort of pleasant flight...
(sort of, cause well... my cold made my ear hurt really bad during landing, and the fact that there was a problem with the plane's audio system... and the food was reallly, really horrible i couldn't eat it, and the air stewardess english was horrible... and.... that the plane was really small and cramped, and fully booked and had only two toilets..... yeah i think that's the end of the complaint)
yeap, i think that's it... i had a fun trip, slightly dampened by my lack of understanding in manadarin, and due to my cold, and the fact that no one.. i repeat NO ONE, would accompany me to the hot springs :( then again, i was already down with the cold then, so it was in some sense a blessing in disguise...
i bought a number of things for myself.. at a cheap price (hey it's China right?), namely? a name card holder, cheaper than what you can get it for back home... a blouse, and a jacket... well with the clothings, i hope they don't shrink after being washed.. (they kept me really warm too, so i think they should be ok?)
other than that.. there's really nothing much to buy there, (cause we can get it back home)... so it was a lot of scenery pictures.. it was a pity the cable car for the snow mountain was under maintanence... i miss snow... but it was still okay?
alritey... really tired from the trip, so need to sleep as tomorrow it's back to the office, i'm starting to wish that i had taken an extra day off =.=' but then again. i'm taking a day off this week for my physiotheraphy... sigh.... so i didn't take that one day....
so back to work tomorrow to face the shit... err work... and yeah.. drowsy from the cold medication.. going to hit the sack.. good night world...
sorry la... if this post sounds angry again, my dreams have been telling me that i've been holding in too much shit, and need to let it go.. hahhahaha... nitey all :)
i hope i can come home early.... cause tomorrow my dad is going to pick my precious up, i missed him so much throughout the whole trip =.=' baby~~~ come home to mummy ;p hehehhe
WARNING: RANT AHEAD! LOADS OF PROFANITY. STEER CLEAR IF YOU HAVE A PROFOUND ALLERGY OR DISLIKE FOR PROFANITIES.
I need to rant because I am no Buddha, it's normal for me to accumulate some negative karma, cause as I said, if I don't accumulate any, then I would be Buddha.
For those allergic to profanities but still curious.... As they say curiousity kills the cat, but since I feel a little nice today, I shall spare you.
This post is merely a rant on the stupid local authorities of my area, as they have asked us to take down the barricade and invite the theives back into my neighbourhood with open arms!
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Due to those fucking selfish bastards who complained so much about the road closures at my residential area, the local authority has ordered us to remove the barricades within 14 days, or well.. I guess, we could be facing a criminal suit, since it will then be considered a public nuisance...
Feel so fucking pissed! You want to be real selfish? than un-barricade all the gated neighbourhoods now!! Why only mine?? Screw those fucking minions over, every single one of them stingy, self-centered bastards!! yeah, listen to the fucking minority for once, and screw over the majority when it suits you!
Obviously you can't keep everyone happy, but shouldn't you at least try to keep the majority happy? Logically, that's how a bloody society is supposed to work! By barricading the city, it's a mere traffic problem, without barricading it causes even more serious problems, it causes thefts, break-ins, property damage, maybe even rape, death or murder... Fucking brainless gits!
Draw a fucking list and weigh the pros and cons you idiots!
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is the fucking guidelines??? I want to read it and throw something at the bloody local authorities. they are already so fucking incompetent that they can't assure us our security, and now they won't let us protect ourselves.
What is fucking wrong with their fucking brains??!! Do they even have any??!!
First you fail to protect us, and now you won't let us protect ourselves???? we are like sheep waiting out in the open for the wolves to come and grab us! Fucking local authority, can we please vote the current government out, and get a proper government in?? one that ACTUALLY bothers about the safety of the people, of the rakyat...
The end of 2009, has come and gone, the beginning of 2010, is here... and well... it's just here..... we can't do anything about it....
it's just an excuse to eat and drink bla bla, yes, I'm jaded.... this is what life has done to me....
anyway, welcome to 2010 everyone, and good bye to 2009, and good riddance with that...
my last day of 2009 was filled with nothing but mishaps.. or rather, bad luck.... oh... i hate---d........ 2009... with passion.... well, to be honest the last day.... let's see what happened....
first the train was late... hmm that's a sign.. but oh well.... nevermind....
second i was expecting an email so that i can start my work early, finish it early, and fulfil my half day leave request....
bloody internet was down in the whole office, till at least 2 hours later... which meant that it would be impossible for me to leave at 1pm, the time i can leave since i had taken my half day leave... never mind... that's still swell....
happily away doing work, when..... with all honesty? i'm an idiotic git, I've no idea what happened, but i lost a good 2 hours of my work... i was seriously going WTF!!! and fucked up did i feel. felt so stupid for trusting the idiotic, retarded laptop, and not saving my work periodically...
i spent/wasted almost an hour, a god-damned hour, trying everything i know to get it back, but couldn't... i thus decided to breath, and resign myself to re-doing the work... thanks dear, and everyone else for hearing me curse and emo at my beloved office laptop.. (i think, it's taking revenge, cause i accidentally dropped it the other day.. eventhough there's no damage.... =.=' or so, i hope haha)
was really fucked up plus frustrated, cause try as i might, i could not get back the original muse of what i had written for the opinion, in which at that particular time, my muse was floating like....... ermm... well, smoothly.. and try as i might, i felt that what was reproduced was.... only second par... yes, was very unhappy, and very fucked up.... nevermind...
discovered firm will close at 3pm....... so.. since the document died on me, and i had to waste time, i was definitely going to be there till after 3, so emailed to cancel leave.. pointless to take something you can't, idiotic even....
nevermind...... i wanted to go to the bar council... then i found out, it bloody closed at 12!!! never mind!!!
i lost a button on my mobile, a button i frequently used...... so now the convenience is gone..... (breathes) nevermind!!!!
friends decided to go to i-city, nothing there, total waste of time and petrol..... nevermind......
nevermind, nevermind.... it's 2010....
i still got to watch my fireworks, front seat, beautiful view... i was with great company the entire night...
so, it was a horrid fucked up day, but yes, my start of 2010 was much better, i had my wine (although you could say.. ermm.. i was a bit hung over the next day), had good friends/company, saw a really cute toy poodle puppy, (though precious is still the only one for me) and yes, that made my night... thank you..
ーOracl3-
oh yeah, visited a 98 (i think) year old relative of mine.. which i don't think i knew existed till today.. wow! coolness.... she's amazing, still strong enough, mind still well enough, and eyesight still good enough... :) ahh~ family
written in conjunction with the article, "Barricaded City" featured in the Star Metro on 14th December 2009. Yes, I've sent it to them, but since I don't have time, and we don't really buy the Star any more... I doubt they published it...
but yeah, this is for all those suckers out there, living on the charity of their neighbours, (cause they refuse to pay the fees for the gated and guarded community, yet can boast that they enjoy it... and that if they don't pay others will.. ooh trust me, idiots like those are my neighbours) and for those acting like nincompoops cause they are selfish and inconsiderate. thank you.. and enjoy!
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Firstly, I am not anti establishment, I just speak the truth, as I see it.
Humans are, to a certain extent selfish and self-centred, especially when it concerns strangers. They only care about their own convenience and safety and not those of others. The complaints from general road users regarding the unreasonableness of the road closures, I feel, is unfounded, and just plain selfish. What do these people have to lose from the road closures? They are merely strangers passing through
True, the roads in residential areas are public roads, but what is the main purpose of these roads? They are for the residents themselves to use, it is their access to enter their own houses; these roads are not meant to be short cuts for drivers to “pass through” just because they don’t want to wait at the junction or a traffic light. In fact they speed (going above 30kmph) through a residential area. Is that not illegal??!!
As far as I can see, these drivers are merely losing some (minimal) time and convenience.
A very minor, if not inconsequential loss, yet they kick up a fuss, scream their lungs out at the security guards, very unsightly, and all because they have to wait longer at junctions, or for the traffic light. It is just selfishness speaking. Have they ever thought, what would the residents lose if these access roads were still widely accessible to the public? Are they themselves not residents somewhere else?
Residents, I believe, may lose their sense of security, their possessions, their safety, their dignity and sometimes, even their lives. An exaggeration? I think not.
The fact that residents have decided to take the matter of their security into their own hands proves that it is a paramount failure of the Federal Government and our Police force. Would residents do this if the Federal Government and the Police made them feel secure? The simple answer would be, no.
Take for example, in just under 2 weeks, 4 houses in my area were robbed. In broad daylight, my own father was robbed right outside our house while trying to enter the front gate. A friend of mine, had her home broken into during the wee hours of the morning, her sister was held captive while they were robbed.
In all these scenarios, some have been hurt physically, some not, but without a doubt, they have all been scarred psychologically. The security in PJ is so poor, parents fear for their children, and children fear for their parents. It may just be a few rotten apples in the basket, but it is a known fact that most Malaysians do not trust the Police. The Police have failed to show us results, and the Federal Government does nothing about it, and nothing about our declining security.
If road users would like to point fingers, point them at MBPJ who authorised the closure of the roads, point them at the 85% of residents who cared enough for their family’s and neighbours safety, point them to the Federal Government and the Police for the lack of security, or the sense of it among the residents. Point all you want, but it will get you no where. Ever wondered what is the point of pointing fingers?
Find your compassion, think of others. Just a slight compromise in their safety, and it could be fatal; it could result in permanent physical damage, paranoia, or the loss of a life. I admit my friends, that yes, what the residents are doing is an act of selfishness but they have a bigger price to pay then the mere loss of time and convenience.
But I guess the best part of it all is the irony. I am sure a number of these road users, are from gated communities themselves, so what is the fuss about exactly?
Oh, and the thing about emergencies? Boomgates can always be unlocked and opened.
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p/s: this is the original version before editing and before i cut out certain parts.... namely the pointing finger part from what I sent to the papers. reason? well it would be too long to explain why i included MPBJ, cause apparently they won't give any written documents to actually prove that they allowed the closure of the roads.. but, apparently there is a guideline from MBPJ that states you need 85% (min) of the residents to agree... (click on the word "guideline", there are two links attached to it)
=.=' so in the end, I didn't want to send stuff that i didn't have time to research on....
oh yeah, on another note, I've not been much of a diplomat as of late.. (i doubt i ever was much of one to start with) but yes, please don't mind me... and my so called evil-ness streak running rampant currently... maybe it's the Christmas season? cause it pissess me off.... muahahahhaha
(okay, okay it doesn't la, I like holidays cause it means food and wine la... =.=')
I now know how some people feel when we keep calling them hypocrites.. (I'm not talking about politicians..) but guess what... (although in this particular case, no one has openly called me that, except me, myself & I)
I think, some people are nice, that's why they are hypocrites.. (hard to believe? it's not really intentional, they do really feel sorry and sincerely want to help the person.. perhaps... we can't really call them hypocrites then? but I digress...pity such as theirs, more often then not get abused... steel yourself!!) sometimes on this planet, I don't know why, but there appears a sort of person that can force you to be a hypocrite when you don't want to be one. but you find it so hard not to be one... without even realising it, if you don't stop to think...
seriously, if you didn't think, you wouldn't realise it... (come to think of it... actually in a lot of small little ways we are hypocrites...little Napoleons.. we can't survive in this cruel society otherwise... how many times were we forced to say or do things against our believe, because society or your peers, for that matter think it is the right thing to do?)
example... you don't really like the person, (i.e. the person isn't someone you would really bother to hang out with, or deal with, unless absolutely necessary...) but you are okay with the person, (i.e not repulsed, you don't think the person as a cockroach or something like that, civil human beings at least would think that right?)..
you are fairly neutral and civil to the person.... I mean, what's there to be not neutral and civil?? just don't expect me to act like your long lost buddy... we are all generally nice people... but...
well for me... honestly..... I don't really care.. (if you do something to piss me off, I get angry fast and cool down just as fast.. if you own up and apologise, even better..) just stay off my tail, leave me alone... respect me, and I respect you... you want to bitch behind my back, fine.. it's normal... as they say, what you don't know can't hurt you... people need to rant, I understand that..
The reason why I don't exactly conform to society, but do conform to society's pressure in certain ways (hope you understand what I'm trying to say) is because I want a peaceful life.... no, or little drama... I like my privacy and my life, thank you very much.. but what is pissing me off is that I can't say my mind... every time.... time and time again... God!! why are there people like this on earth??
I know, I know.. to test my patience... and my sincerity, they make the world a colourful place.. so that I've something to laugh about when I'm not that pissed... so with this rant.. I am going to do my best to put it behind me, and just be a robot... to all those sort of people.. (so that I can't, hopefully be a hypocrite) it's just that.. actually.. I think the idiocy irritates me more...
Can't beat them? join them... let's all be little Napoleons.. Utopia does not exist.. never did, never will... life is cruel... and what can we do but just live it... sigh, the irony of it all..
if you are not fond of my profound usage of language and release of pent up anger than please do us all a favour and skip this post. Don't get bias at me later, I am who I am, and I've already warned you, there's nothing much but anger, lots of it and a fair amount of profanity.
And though I rarely cuss, I have my moments, and I dearly hope some asshole in Maxis will read this and rectify the problem and make me one happy and satisfied customer, before I cuss everything to oblivion!
MAXIS 748!!!
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Here is something I wrote about a month ago... when I was pissed, but still not that pissed!
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To: The-not-so-dear-much-abhorred-by-me Maxis broadband provider,
Lately I have been very, very, and I mean very, upset with your service. Especially for the past month or so. I am very, extremely dissatisfied, and I feel totally cheated out of my monthly fee that I am forced to pay for this lousy service that you are providing.
This is not the way to do business, cheating people out of their money, I am paying you, and I demand you deliver what I pay for. I do not accept a stupid service which does not let me log on to use my internet which I am paying for, or which allows me to log on for a minute, insufficient to do anything and then drops me.
Honestly, I can put up with a slow line every once in a while but not when it happens so damn often that it defeats the purpose of me applying for broadband in the first place, and failing to connect or even better, treating me like some Chips more cookie. “Oh lookie here, now I’m connected, now I’m not.”
I’m not some idiot you can take advantage of. What’s the point of applying for broadband when I’m not getting that service???!!!
And this event recurring itself for almost a month or even more, that is not how it works, even if you disclaim liability in your contract, this is a breach that goes right to the root of the contract. It is simple: I pay, you provide.
Not I pay, and you DON’T provide. Sueing seems quite tempting at this point of time (I know why most laymen go sue this and that over everything, cause that's how I feel like now, exactly!), but this is considered very trivial, and it is a total waste of time and not to mention the legal costs would be way much more than what I can afford or would be reimbursed. Even if you have to bear the costs, the time spent for trial for such a trivially stupid thing, is just so not worth it!
Alternatively, if you view this letter as defaming you, then please by all means prove me wrong, and provide me with a much better service than the one you are providing now; where I am paying for not being able to go online at all/for slow service/discrepant service/interrupted service.
And I would be more than happy to oblige you by removing this letter, but I will not apologise, unless you give me due reason to do so, and when I mean due reason, it’s not because you are suing/intimidating me to do so, because it is a fact that I had to suffer that totally useless service of yours for the duration of May 2009, and I’m getting ready to add June 2009 into that list as well.
This is totally defeating the reason why I am paying your company. So remind me again? Why am I paying almost a hundred each month for?
If there are too many users slowing down the line, THAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, not mine, and I expect you to rectify that and to give me a reasonable service. If you insist on providing such lousy service to me, then I demand that you reimburse me.
Which BEING THE STINGY COMPANY YOU ARE, I doubt you will. Or if you are willing, most likely it will take you a really long time. Unless, again, you are affected by this letter and would like to try and prove me wrong by either reimbursing me, and doing it quickly.
I find it so irritating that I cannot even check my mail in peace and have to resort to reconnecting myself before even managing to reply to an email or to even open and read it. I cannot describe my total annoyance, and calling your helpline, or 24 hour service line doesn’t help me, as they will only ask me to do things which I know they are going to ask me to do, because I’ve done it like what? A gazillion times already. So thank you very much, but no thank you for your lousy advice on what to do to improve my connection. The problem as far as I’m concerned is not mine but definitely yours!
And I’m not one to let my anger go on your poor personnel answering the phone, because it is not their fault, and that they are only doing their job. My anger is directed to the managing director, director and CEO of the company, who are either ignorant of the trouble going on below, or decided to budget everything and screw the service being received by customers like me who are very disgruntled, and unlike other customers, very willing to voice my opinion out.
Because I believe Malaysians always suffer in silence and this has become a trend, and if we don’t speak out, nothing will change. Life doesn’t work that way anymore, high-up-people-in-the-company. Short-changing people isn’t the way to go anymore. So please pass some resolutions or whatever you need to pass (hold some goddamnned meetings) for the improvement of the service that you provide to your customers, get your managers to work on it, and follow through with it. True, you can’t keep the whole world happy, but at least make the majority happy.
If you want more customers to earn more revenue, then upgrade your freaking servers so that it can take the pressure load. Don’t give me a service which is below the broadband level, the reason why I got broadband is because I wanted a faster network not a network that is so damn slow, I’m much better off on dial up then on your stupid network.
And finally, thank you very much for wasting your time in reading this letter, and mine, for having to type this up for you to read, and wasting both our times. In conclusion all that I would like to say is, upgrade your stupid service!
Regards, Your very, very disgruntled and unhappy customer
P/S: To prove this claim, I think I should start collecting evidence, mainly, that would be, although it is very, and I repeat very, troublesome, calling your service centres, every minute of the day whenever the line drops me, just to complain, so that it would be recorded in the company’s log, and which I can demand for evidence in an action in court, even if you refuse to show them, I will have my own phone bill to prove it. No, I’m not going to call for advice, which I already know they are going to give, I will just call them, and lodge a complaint. Thank you very much!
And here, ladies and gentlemen is what I wrote, after almost 2 months (it is now the end of June that's why...), of such idiotic service. and I am very pissed. Have I called them and complained? oh yes, I have, to which I got the stupid answer that there is a fucking major problem with the network in my area which they don't know how many aeons it will take them to fix. Hence the below.
MAXIS GO SCREW YOURSELF
Yes, I’m again dissing my dearly hated internet connection. We pay 98 bucks a month for no internet at all. How pleasant. There is a reason why one subscribes for a power package with unlimited usage you know.
I would like to come back from work after a long day, and check my mail at my leisure, talk to people I want to talk to. Download mangas and animes and dramas to watch to relax. Maybe play some of my games which are unfortunately all online.
So Maxis is being so kind as to deprive me of that for close to 2 months.
Getting pissed off in the office (due to various reasons, which range from technical to everything else) and coming home and getting pissed off at the fucking connection, cause why??!! I can’t even go and check my email. Oh so pleasant.
Fuck you and your MAJOR FUCKING PROBLEM THAT YOU ARE HAVING IN MY AREA NOW!! FIX THE DAMN FUCKING THING!!
I haven’t been able to download crap at all.. and I want to watch my dramas. I can’t play my games cause it won’t load, cause I can’t connect at all. I can’t chat with people because of the fucking unstable line which most of the time just drops and refuses to reconnect.
I am angry? You betcha I am angry. Go do me a HUGE FAVOUR AND GO SCREW YOURSELF. Even in the day time (when I’m at home) when I’m using the internet it happily screws itself over as well. What the fuck is this??
How do you expect one to relax and distress??? I already face enough shit in life give me a break, and make me happy!
And woe is me, each time I diss maxis here, it’s in hopes that one of the idiotic higher ups there will actually read this and for goodness sake, one that CAN ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING!!!! DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, AND MAKE ME HAPPY!! FUCK OFF MAXIS!!
hmm~ please ignore if you don't feel like reading complaints...
Actually I am kind of lazy to complain.. So my complaints for the past few weeks are, and this are the major pissy ones.. that i'm actually really unhappy about, but can do nuts.. :-
This freaking hot weather, even the wind feels hot, it's just hot, hot, hot grrrr....
The stupid freaking hot weather is causing mosquitoes to breed like there's no tomorrow and happily sucking away at my blood... buzzing next to my ear... argghhh
Stupid connection is so damn bloody slow I can't download nuts!!! arghh this is so pissing me off!!
on another note body shop is having its annual sales... it's a bane to me... definitely.. well though i don't really buy much from there.. but at least 160 bucks gone... sigh... oh well... it's annual... adding up with some other stuff... donations are highly welcome...
End of complaint....
just needed to let it out, although I know it won't do anything at all...
The usual complain about my !@£$%^&* connection has returned.. since the complaints are as usual... I won't go into too much details.. but I will again say this.. People stop subscribing to Maxis broadband if you don't want to suffer like me... !!!
If Maxis wants me to stop dissing their service, then they should upgrade it to a level where I've no right to complain..
Am melting, and adding anther thing to my list to totally despise and hate. the hot weather.. this year's dry spell seems worse than the year before, or well, they seem like that every year?
Why I hate the hot weather, it gets so dusty and hazy, not to mention it's hot, so it makes you all sweaty and sticky, and mosquitoes breed like it's some holy ground, and go sucking at your blood like the bloody vampires they are.
Everyone cranks up their air conditioning, contributing more to the thinning of the ozone layer. People driving more instead of walking because of the stupid weather, contributing more to the pollution. Everything contributing to make it hotter than it already is.
One day, just mark my words One day the ice caps in the north and south poles will melt, and drown out everything, with the water level as high as Mount Everest, killing all of man kind, and hopefully after a few centuries, without the pollution caused by mankind the world will become cold again, the water will recede, and freeze, and life forms, mostly fishes that would be left, would evolve and go back on land and start Charles Darwin's theory of evolution all over again. (hopefully not creating humans again this time???)
But the thing is, humans are a nuisance, they are even more stubborn than cockroaches, oh, just mark my words, they will build some sturdy sort of ships or submarines to live in and propagate, and we will have underwater cities, and heck, they will even genetically engineer people to have gills to live under water, realizing the myths of mermaids. Just trust my words, humans are more tenacious than cockroaches... and that's the irritating truth... woe is the earth and the global warming that was caused by humans....
-Oracl3-
P/S: I speak as the alien amoeba from a distant galaxy, frustrated over this super hot weather which shows no signs of abating, and the rains which does not seem to want to come, and the headaches that accompany me in such hot weather and the bloody suckers that suck me dry since they can breed like hell in this kind of weather.
GAAaah!! what is wrong with the stupid connection???!!!
Ahh, yes, the moment of truth... (with a capital B)
Let me get this straight.. I still love you, it, whoever, or whatever I happen to be bitching about.. (whenever I do bitch...) but well, yeah.. life just gets to you sometimes...
People who bitch in general, Are people who are pissed, People who are pissed, Are angry people, People who are angry, Are people who are unhappy, People who are unhappy, Are miserable people... And well, people who are miserable... Are just that.. miserable.. So have some pity....
So the conclusion is, in general, Miserable people are people who bitch...
And the more miserable they are, the more they bitch...
So instead of getting angry at people who bitch, listen to what they have to say, and seek the truth and logic in that, and maybe help them along, or keep it to yourself, but please don't get angry with them and start spreading gossips or whatever (as I've noticed it's always the case, going behind the person's back.... Well...... Hey........ come to think of it, doesn't that count as bitching as well??? O_O' Krud...)
Cause people who bitch are miserable people, so we should feel sorry for such miserable people, and revive that compassion we have hidden in our souls..
So yes, please pity me when I bitch (as I do as well.). And to be honest, (I've noticed, both in others and personally) when we bitch we don't really mean it, we're just ranting, people need to let the miserable things off their chest to move on and be slightly more happier... So let's all forgive people who bitch... cause bitching is just part of human nature..
(And to everyone who caught me bitching, my sincerest apologies... after all, no matter how much I deny it, I'm unfortunately still human, and am living in this society of humans....)
Thank you
The end
-Oracl3-
P/s: Ah, you could tell that things haven't been going that great? Why, thank you... Though I have a number of things to be thankful for.. Am searching for the lining in the silver clouds... and well.. no matter how worse off we think we are.. there are people worse off than us....
I think that's enough said.. Cause with the net acting like the Chipsmore cookies.. It's so hard to do work, or to even get my usual fix...
Also as of late, besides work... I've been on a Shoujo Manga spree lately... *shrugs* especially those involving supernatural stuff, like ghosts, kyuubi etc... leaning to the supernatural side??
Sigh, also... I really need to find time to complete the list, and well, to organise the files in my computer and external hard drives, and to make some space by burning stuff out... ゲエー.... 時よ、どこえ？Why are those stuff, things that really needs a lot of time... =.=' 何でだろうな。。 はー
Life can be a real prick...but I think people are the real pricks.... The people around us, are what determines how our environment will be like. The people that we pick to surround us, or in which the situations causes us to be surrounded by such people, determine how eventful or boring our life shall be...
Sometimes we just get so fed up with some people and things, but we can't help it, it's not easy to get rid off. Getting rid of it, would mean breaking fellowships and things, which seems kind of selfish and childish on my part. And I don't want people to take sides, because of my little rift, or dissatisfaction. And well, wouldn't it be a waste of things??
But being so altruistic has no benefits at all, people don't appreciate you, take you for granted, assume you are always carefree, and basically take the fullest advantage out of you, whether they realise it or not, and that gets very tiring. You get sick of people who seem to care, but don't care at all.
Whether they are pretending to care, or really care but don't know how to show it, remains a mystery. But it still gets sickening, and tiring. Gestures are nice, sincere gestures are even nicer. Maybe it was the way I was brought up, but I guess what I'm looking for has yet to come, or I'm not doing the right things to meet what I'm looking for.
But sometimes when I stop and look to my sides, I see somethings that I've searched for. It's not exactly complete, and makes me want more, then I start to think, am I being greedy? Is that Okay? Is it okay to be selfish? To take, and not give in return? I don't want to fall to that level, so I hesitate.....
Okay.... Fake Buddhist Crapping post aside.. (currently reading the Buddha, Geoff & Me.. that would explain it all...) which I think only 3 people would somewhat understand fully what this is all about.... So if you don't understand it, it's okay... it's just me crapping.... On to some other news....
Life has been mundane lately, wake up - go to work - come home - work and sleep late; or if possible, watch some drama or anime or something and sleep early - repeat again the next day.
Friday is a tad different, since I get to hang out with some friends every Friday after work, then Weekends.... I've not much of a life either.... and Monday crawls on me from behind again.. with somewhat murderous intent...
Christmas was okay, it was the usual eating spree.. Nothing superb... unless you count my aunt's new house.. she has a flair for decoration I must say... :p
Boxing day was sad! I had to work.... But it was okay... The day after was okay, since its the sales, bought 2 working blouses... so damn Expensive... and the shirts in that shopping mall... the mall I frequent is crap... not even 2 months, and there's a pleasant hole in the blouse.. it was like 45 bucks!! RIP OFF!! BOYCOTT!!!!! GAAAHHH!! Waste of money... not-so-cheapis not neccessarily good.. Sometimes we have to go for the brands, for QUALITY products...
Next...
Someone weirded me out recently, with its (Yes, you read correct, no gender to be specified... could or could not even be human....) actions?
Maybe it's me being overly sensitive.. but please.. don't do things like that in front of me??? It freaks me out, cause it NEVER does that..... Okay, maybe I'm being overly sensitive.. Ignore me...
Ants are attacking me...
My intention to build more good karma has gone down the drain, since they started biting me... Am on a murder spree now.. killing not-so-innocent victims....
31st October 2008 was halloween.. although this country of mine doesn't widely celebrate it as in like the west, Mel decided to organise one for our university mates.. so we did.. and on the 31st we ended up at TGIF at the curve for dinner and to well.. just be what we aren't haha..
Well.. there's nothing much to say here.. the pictures will say it all, when blogspot or maxis.. stops being such and ass and allows me to upload pictures.. so await an edit to this post...
Edit
Here we have Terence as the Joker from batman.. Me as a Japanese School girl... most likely from Tokyo haha.. Xian Ai & Wei Li the devil... Some waiter from TGIF posing as grim the ripper and Marlyn as some vampire...
after dinner we headed to Quatron near KLCC for some clubbing.. it's anew club with the concept of having 4 seasons.. hence the reason of my post now... If you are the kind like me, who goes clubbing for the dancing part and not the drinking part.. then please spare yourself the misery of going to Quatron..
That place is for people to drink!! There is no dance floor.. I reapeat... THERE IS NO DANCE FLOOR. The place is horrid if you hate ciggeratte smoke like me.. and well my allergies thank you to it.. My eyes sting like mad.. and well.. strangely enough.. I didn't cough that much as I thought I would.... Well in return I got a headache.. guess the people nearby must have been smoking... ermm.. Dunhills I think... Well, if I recall correctly that's the brand that gives me minimal cough but a huge headache... sigh..
Well, the smoke was horrible for my eyes.. and I suffer the effects still... one day after that.. And I've washed my hair twice and it STILL STINKS OF CIGGERATE SMOKE... Woe is me.....
Listening to Tchaikovsky's 1812 Overture..... fitting?? Watched 2 movies today.. The Holiday and 21.. Yesterday I watched Just Like Heaven.. all 3 are nice movies.. shall review them later when I get the chance... Since I start work this coming monday... =.='
And also speaking of which.. when the club asked for contact details I purposely changed one of the digits of my handphone number to avoid getting spammed by them.. and woah... they still managed to send spam to me... =.=' horrible.. totally horrible...
We all know what I go through when the weather is this unbearably hot.. thus is my life... Sigh...
Got back from the South 2 days ago? Was in Singapore, seeing my cute nephews and well.. maybe it's my last trip since I'll start work next week.. NEXT MONDAY to be exact.. that will mean even less time then now to do all the stuff I've usually been doing...
Of my list..
Sort pictures from 2006-2007 for developing Not even 10% done I think.. sad..
Finish photo album with current pictures (Where the heck did I put the pictures??! Damn!) Well there's about 30% more to go I guess.. maybe more..
Translate the Ghost Hunt Manga Volume 10 Haven't translated a thing for almost 2 months?? 20 more pages... and well. .the other parts haven't been uploaded...
Wash bathroomIt obviously needs to be washed again..
tidy room... (Well only one corner is messy....) With my sister here.. it got messed again.. and well.. I did some messing too..
Iron clothes.... Non at the moment..
Tidy up cupboard...g I messed it up a tad..
Practise musical instruments? Does playing twinkle twinkle little star on the violin once count?
Blog about my excursions etc.? Well, when I find the mood.. and time... Time, time... and well.. mood... plus blogspot stop being an ass and let me upload pictures.. I can't even write reviews for CA as it is =.=
Tidy up the "Work" room next door.. well after I'm done with it.. Never touched it.. and my sis messed it up too..
... Anything else I deem fit to enter into this entry.....
I'm a failure... it's hopeless..
Not many pictures from Singapore.. unless you count the countless nephew pictures?? ermm well... that is all for the time being.. feeling really tired.. am gonna hit the sack early before i burst a vein over my retarded adium (It works as My IM.. allows me to sign in to MSN, YM and google talk at the same time..).. so sorry if you see me signing in and out of MSN, and am not replying your messages.. It's honestly not my fault...
Mel wants to have a halloween party this friday.. i.e. 31st October 2008, means I'll miss my badminton again.. and well I don't know what to go as.. any suggestions?
I have a traditional Japanese summer dress a.k.a the Yukata and I thought of going in that(saying I'm either going as Jigoku shoujo, or some lame thing such as.. the background character in some periodical anime, where everyone wears a yukata)..
But mel suggested going as a Japanese school girl.. in which this would involve my old high school's marron tie, a white shirt, my mini red checkered skirt.. court shoes.. and white socks if I can find it... so which one should I go as...??
some "Japanese student" or some Japanese in the traditional Japanese summer dress? inputs are gladly appreciated and very much needed. Thank you
On another note.. my iTunes has been fixed.. I really got to love the guy at IT Planets at the curve.. though I feel sorry for bothering him so often.. =.='
and some earlier posts below.. will be edited to include pictures.. that is.. when my connection allows me to upload pictures... =.='
-Oracl3-
P/S: My IM is being a really HUGE pain in the ASS!! Grrrrr!!
IT'S BEEN A FEW DAYS ALREADY, AND I CAN'T CONNECT PROPERLY, ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT ARGHH.. Where have all my decent conversations gone too??? being cut off every so OFTEN!
PEOPLE USE GOOGLE TALK OR YAHOO MESSENGER PLEASE!! Even skype is fine with me..
Initially I had decided to keep silent on this and just let it blow over and all, but after hearing the latest news I couldn't take it anymore. Where is justice? Our judiciary system!! Where has it all gone??!!
The big issue going around Malaysia now, is no longer the Anwar sodomy case... Nope, that case has taken a back seat for the time being, for an even bigger issue, [currently that is] the comments and action by a certain Politician namely Ahmad Ismail (Bukit Bendera)
His statements that Chinese are Squatters, and the tearing up of the picture of Gerakan's acting leader was really uncalled for. Heck, if a non Malay were to say such things, we would be accused of Sedition and thrown into prison, possibly under the ISA. But somebody got away with it, with only 3 years suspension, and he still refuses to apologize!
IF anyone wishes to argue with him about Chinese being squatters, please take a good look at our history and compare it to Ahmad Ismail's comment!
But arguing with him about who are squatters where, will do nothing, and in fact we will be falling into their trap of fanning racial issues, playing right into their stupid political game. Which they had no sense to change even after 51 years of independence.
There's apparently and agenda behind it, due to the upcoming party elections.. (Understand the meaning between the lines? I, unfortunately cannot say more than this... Ask me in private and in person for more details, and no recordings please)
It's a sad revelation that this country has come to, this country has seen at least 3 generations of Chinese people born and bred here, and we are squatters... Is this how far we have gone in 51 years??!!
And the perpetrator gets off with such a light punishment. And I mean light!
This is actually obviously a seditious act, please head to Witch Hunt to read the exact wording of the statute.
The Sedition Act states that:
S. 3(1) of the Sedition Act 1948 defines A “seditious tendency” as a tendency to:
(e)promote feelings of ill-will and hostility between different races or classes of the population of Malaysia;
Therefore Ahmad Ismail falls under section 3 subsection 1(e) on that, because he said that Chinese people are squatters, and this has caused feelings of ill-will and hostility between the races. We know between which races, I don't have to mention anything more....
Therefore under section 4 subsection 1(a) & (d), which states that: "any person who does or attempts to do, or makes any preparation to do, or conspires with any person to do, any act which has or which would, if done, have a seditious tendency; and utters seditious wordsshall be guilty of an offence and shall, on conviction, be liable, for a first offence to a fine not exceeding five thousand ringgit or to imprisonment for a term not exceeding three years or to both, and, for a subsequent offence, to imprisonment for a term not exceeding five years" [Quoted from S. 4(1) of the Sedition Act 1948, click here to understand more about Sedition and the Malaysia's Sedition Act]
Tell me again why he's only suspended for 3 years?? Where is the law?? He did aSeditious act & uttered Seditious words.. [Well, okay not so much as act, but he did utter!!]Where is the law??!!
You know, if we like, we can even catch him under the Internal Security Act 1960, look at article 149 here.
"Subversion’ has been defined in Article 149 (1) to refer to the following..... promoting feelings of ill-will between classes of the population in such a way as is likely to cause violence; procuring alteration, or causing prejudice to public order or national security."
with this Ahmad Ismail can sit in prison without trail for 2 years, in which the time can be extended..
"Under this law the Minister of Home Affairs may detain a person for a period not exceeding two years (and renewable for two year periods indefinitely) on the suspicion or belief that the detention of that person is necessary in the interest of public order." [Section 8 Internal Security Act 1960]
Please note that I do not support the ISA but the Human Right's Act, but since it's there, I might as well use it. Honestly, I would prefer to catch him under the Sedition Act since there is enough evidence, and the jail term is longer.
* Disclaimer: Everything which has been quoted/referred to has been quoted from the sites provided above
Where it all started, the racist remark, "This is Malay Land, Chinese are squatters"... ooh lookie who's talking! History depicts otherwise.. Does he know his Malaysian history??!!
Am I Wrong he asks? If he's going to speak English then speak English, don't mix with Malay... Not afraid of ISA??!! Free country??!! Anyone can comment??!! Tell that to those people in prison under ISA!! Maruah bangsa [Pride of your race], Hello?? In other countries, people usually say Country then/before race, Negara[country]dan[and] Bangsa[Race], bukan Bangsa dan Negara..
3 years suspension.... What tindakan Disiplin [Disciplinary action]?! This is Sedition, we have laws for that!
Refuses to apologize still.. and people are supporting him... What on earth..? Even better? Asking Koh Tsu Koon to Apologize instead..
And now Tun Mahathir says he's coming back to UMNO.... -Oracl3-
