The smooth surface,
Almost mirror like,
Watching it unknowingly,
I entered its flow,
Unconsciously submerged by it,
Fighting to grasp the sky,
Before being pulled down again,
Following it’s flow,
Unable to turn back,
The road is set;
I shall head to sea,
Can you see the future?
It’s unpredictable
✿Oracl3✿
**since i recieved complaints that you guys can't see the pictures, i redid this post... so there, enjoy :) it is quite funny **
HGRC Chart
Organizational Structure
Resource management
Oh Lord give me patience... NOW!
got this from xin yin.. in the mail... thought to share :) hope the daigrams come out, cause i just cut and paste, from the email, so if it doesn't show and you are interested i don't mind sending that mail to you haha :p
**Skip this post if you don’t have time, unless you are interested in finding out 100 dog behaviours haha… this post measures at least 8 pages on Microsoft words haha, to those who like dogs.. good luck in reading then haha >:)**
Did you know that when you pat a dog on the head and he closes it eyes, it means that actually he doesn’t like it, but he is dealing with it in the only way he knows how, since we humans like to do it?
Did you know that when a dog yawns or a quick flick of its tongue around its lips and tongue means it’s anxious?
Did you know that it is actually worrisome if our dog keeps chasing his tail too frequently? It actually means the dog is bored…
Too bad I don’t have a tail to chase? Haha
Did you know that male dogs like to be rubbed on the chest?? Apparently this is especially so for those single male dogs haha, cause apparently the rubbing sensation is what they get when they hump a female, that part of the body will rub against the female :p makes me wonder what about females??
Did you know that when you see two dogs stuck together you shouldn’t separate them? Sometimes when a dog mates, they do get stuck from about 10 minutes to an hour.. Apparently it’s because unlike humans.. They have a 3 stage process in their mating, and getting stuck helps them in those stages.. They will get unstuck by themselves, and trying to help them actually hurts them… so ya, now we all know to leave them alone ahha :p definitely can’t and refuses to imagine the outcome if humans were like that haha
Did you know when a dog raises his paw towards you; it actually shows that he is acknowledging that you are dominant? Well for small dogs to go on their hind legs, we all know that it's kind of like a form of begging? But it also shows their acknowledgment, though I can’t really fully agree with this… maybe they just want to act tall?? :p
Did you know, well it should be do you realise that all this did you knows are driving me nuts ahha….. Irritated after only 6 of them haha
Dogs bark for a reason, it's mostly their way of saying something is wrong… like if you aren’t paying attention to your dog, he barks cause something is wrong, why aren’t you paying any attention to him?
Dogs are actually short sighted, they can see things which are far away, but may miss the bone or toy right in front of them... haha so means my dog is like me..
Dogs are actually merciful, unlike cats, who play with their prey before killing, the dog tends to kill it of fast and bring it down to pieces, so after killing the squeak out of the squeaky toy, he thens proceed to bring it into pieces :p
Dogs like to sleep with their owners cause it reminds them of the time when they are puppies and close to their mother, though as I experienced after that, it’s kind of hard to wean him away from me.. The nerve of him scolding me, when I don’t let him sleep with me.. =.=’
Dogs like to be as close to their human as possible, cause they are like a pack, keeping the dog outside the house can be done, but the poor thing will be thinking, why is it separated and isolated from its pack?
Well anyway, holding a dog’s muzzle is also a show of dominance… mother dogs do it to their puppies to keep them in place, and well other dogs tend to attack the other dog on the muzzle to show that they are the dominant one… my baby got attacked by his brother on the muzzle.. My poor baby, but it was his older brother? :p
Dogs smile by baring their teeth, if there is no ferocious growling and the dog is quiet and it shows its teeth its just smiling at you :p
Staring at your dog is actually a no, no, cause staring is a show of dominance, if you tend to stare at your dog; do you notice that it licks its tongue or yawns? It’s because it’s anxious.. And it’s like you are trying to tell him I’m dominant… it’s not affection… But I can’t help it, he’s so cute, so I stare…
Well we dog owners know, that dogs can give us guilty, angry and sad looks haha watch the ears for this one.. They prick it up when giving full attention to something.. And it goes down, when they are guilty, angry etc
This I already know, when they are confused, dogs tend to tilt their head haha
Female dogs come into heat twice a year, and are real irritable during that period, and will snap at male dogs when she hasn’t ovulated… when she is ready she will raise her tail??… And also I heard from other people, that they will possibly snap at people as well, that’s why my dog is a male :p
Female dogs sometimes go through phantom pregnancies, it can and will sometimes get to the point where they produce milk =.=’ but if the dog is showing such symptoms such as building a nest etc, be cruel and keep her in check so that she wakes up, and well she will eventually…
Rolling over means they want to play.. I knew that, but mine doesn’t really does that… but sometimes rolling over also means that they are trying to show you that they are not harmful…
We dog owner’s should be familiar with the “I want to play” stance
Dogs can actually associate kids as a nuisance, especially if they get scolded because of the kid, so some dogs may not like to hang out with kids because of that, though they do acknowledge that even children are more dominant than them..
Dogs like to play chase with others in their pack, did that with mine, accidentally kicked him, and we never played it again.. =.=’
When leaving a dog home alone, they actually don’t understand that the door can be locked and kind of expect someone to walk through the door any moment, so if leaving a dog home alone, give it plenty of space to run or where it can observe…
Restricting the dog access to some part of the house shows that you are the dominant one…
A lot of people believe dogs to be telepathic, but actually it’s because they can smell and hear much better than humans do, they can hear their owner’s car or footsteps from like a few miles away apparently, mine can’t =.=’ and well but I do know that from personal experience that my dog can see spirits.. Don’t know bout other dogs’ haha
Unlike us, we all know that dogs rely on smell, so actually they don’t understand us when we don’t smell haha.. But oh well.. We all know that they are little perverts smelling the groin and butt, but that’s how they smell haha
Sometimes we notice the dog dragging its butt on the floor, it’s not because its butt is itchy or whatever, but it means the glands at its butt which gives off its scent is stuck…
Dogs scratch on the ground to show other dogs that there is a disturbance and that there was another dog there.. Always wondered what the hell mine was doing when he did that…
Marking territories…well we know why they do it right? And well contrary to believe, female dogs do it at well… also their urine tells other dogs when they are in heat…
Dogs are a pack, and well regardless even if it’s two dogs there is a hierarchy
They get really possessive with their toys and bones… This I know… stupid boy will growl so fiercely at me, but in the end I win haha, cause I’m the dominant one hehe
Their stares can mean a lot.. Ever got an angry stare from your dog? They do give that, especially when territorial and possessive…
They dig because they are looking for something, or just for fun, there’s another reason but I forgot
Dogs like rolling in filth? Cause they like smells.. And well it’s a real treat to them to go for car rides with the window down and all, cause it’s all new scents to them.. I get the car part.. But why filth.. ergghh, I don’t let mine do that though haha I don’t like it when he smells other dog’s poop, I mean it’s natural, but I don't like it.. haha cause I’m human…
Dogs eat grass to help them vomit, but sometimes they eat it, cause it’s just there :p mine eats cause it’s there, vomits and gives me more work =.=’ but he also eats it when he on occasion he isn’t well…
In a sort of short greeting, dogs smell each other noses.. Well that is actually the way dogs greet each other by smelling each other ~~
Well there are plenty more of this dog behaviours that I can state, but it’s far too many and actually I am kind of like testing my memory here haha. (and also for future reference for myself, don’t know if I will get amnesia tomorrow or something right? haha)
Today I went to KLCC with huey, satoshi kun, and ai kun to buy tickets for the Malaysian Philharmonic Ochestra, & to collect the Okinawa dance and music festival temporary passes which will be held next weekend 4th November and 3rd November respectively, and well we also to went to Kinokuniya to see if they sell the Tales of Otori, they don’t by the way =.=’ sigh…
Anyway while I was there, I saw a book titled 100 ways to understand dog behaviour ??? (Didn’t really look at the cover… so I think that’s what the cover said), so I took it off the shelf and flipped through it.. Spent about 20 minutes reading it, and well what I typed above is how much I remembered.. I didn’t really read all the behaviours, cause I felt that it didn’t concern my dog, and was too lazy to read, well my dog is male, I know but the things on females sounded interesting so I read as well haha..
Well I joined some of the facts that I found from the book, and mine is like way summarized compared to the book.. So my verdict on my memory.. I can memorise almost up to 40-70% of what I read? Takes some time to recall some parts, but I do manage to recall…
Well actually this were all the stuff that I purposely committed to memory and some accidentally memorised stuff =.=’ I didn’t want to memorise things bout female dogs.. But thought it would benefit Mel in some way when and if she gets her dog :p
Hmm guess my memory is something I can be proud off, memorising everything I wanted to after only reading once hehe, well if I’m concentrating and have the will haha, and well.. It was super relevant to the love of my life.. So maybe that’s why I memorised it all..
I know some of you people are throwing stones at me.. haha, my memory hasn’t really been that great around friends lately has it? haha… sorry then :p
Off topic.. I purposely typed something really long first, and something which you guys don’t really have an interest in, so that if you actually had enough interest to read, you would arrive here, cause this post at this point measures 4 pages on Microsoft words haha.. it’s already moving on to the 5th page :p
So well if you have the will, and can read until here it’s good for you.. I don’t know whether you will consider it a waste of your time to continue reading what I am about to type.. But at least after reading this, you can stop saying I don’t have stamina? And am not fit? Haha the truth is I’m really not fit anyway. Since I don’t do sports ahha..
Ok taking away the suspense haha :p what I am about to type about is basically my intolerance for cigarette smoke, the big reason behind it. This will be another test, to see if you can read through another ton of stuff, though relevant to the reason of my intolerance it can actually be omitted, ahha yes I’m being evil and torturing your eyes, why do you even care so much for me when I’m this evil? haha
Okay I’m not that evil, the reason for my intolerance is because I have mycrocytic anaemia, :p ok, ok at this point some of you may be asking, what does that (anaemia) have to do with it? Well then I shall state down the symptoms that I experience, or if you are too lazy to read then go google it or something, I’m giving a biology lesson now for free haha.. Well health care lecture.. arghh whatever… ;p
Actually since you care enough to read this much, I just want you to understand my condition as well, (and my surname is cheong also, hence my license to be cheong hei[long winded]? haha) haha, so that you won't worry so much, and be asking “how come always like that?” Haha… and well also basically know when to worry? Haha
To the science students.. Well err.. I don’t think we actually studied it in science.. But what the hell.. This is basically what you all know? I experience frequent infections (always falling ill), I’m always cold, especially my hands and feet, well my nails are kind of brittle/weak..
Ermm I don’t think my tongue or gums or skin are pale? Though sometimes my mum says I’m pale just by looking at my lips.. =.=’ but basically I m too tanned to tell whether I m pale, haha but my nail beds do look paler than normal people, that’s why xin yin in high school said I was not a healthy person… o_0 well if you want pale skin, then look at my palms, compared to the rest of you, it’s so white.. And pale like a dead person’s
I always complain I’m weak anyway, and that I don’t like my weak body, but a sweet friend of mine said that I’m perfect, I have hands, legs, body and a brain.. That’s perfect enough.. :) Thanks dear :) but I still feel like this is a sucky weak body =.= haha but normal enough to do normal things normal people do… and I’m thankful for that…
Ermm I’m always tired, people with anaemia tire out more easily than you normal people, cause we don’t have enough oxygen in our system. And well, according to our future biologist satoshi kun whom aided me in my research, I think it is because oxygen is needed to convert energy or something like that, biology students still remember the ADP and ATP equation? Well maybe that’s why I need glucose also…
Which is why when I don’t have enough sleep I’m useless, cause as we studied in biology everyday new cells are made and destroyed, and well new cells are mostly made when we are asleep, i.e. resting stage, so in my case, I already lack the necessary cells, so when it gets destroyed during the day, I don’t have enough rest to replenish it.. Which makes me weaker… My reason for not eating is also, because when we don’t have enough sleep it screws the digestive system..
I really don’t know how I will survive the working world, from what horng yang has told me, and from seeing my sister and relatives who work in the private sector.. I hope I survive the working world, that’s all I can say haha okay back to the fatigue/tired part… :p
So actually when we were touring.. Europe and all, ahaha I actually felt really tired, but partly it’s pride la I guess, cause des was there I didn’t want to hear him nag, so I really pushed myself to the limits haha, even though I was tired as hell I pushed on, I guess for a weak body, I make it up with a strong mind. But anyway.. I don’t have a choice, what are you going to do just because I’m tired? Carry me? I don’t expect that, I don’t think you can carry me to start with haha, that’s why no matter the situation, I will hold out till the very end, and as they say, there is a will there is a way..
Some people also say that we anaemic people break out in sweat faster and easier than normal people?? But anyway example of a situation where I let my will do the work hehe
Well during exertion, like walking 300m uphill, with a 11.2kg backpack on to reach the hostel in Vienna, and well walking uphill to get to the ice cave in Salzburg (though I think Salzburg’s was probably due to the fact that there is less oxygen at high altitudes) during times like this, I have an increased heart rate, and shortness of breath, for Vienna with the backpack it was worse, I was having chest pains as well… and it was so damned hard to breath that I thought I was going to die or something haha.. Symptoms such as increased heart rate, shortness of breath and chest pains have been classified by the online sites as severe cases =.=’ but I do my best not to complain about it, (that’s why didn’t say anything at Bukit Gasing :p but I was only out of breath on that one, and increased heart rate haha..)so actually most people don’t realise it, unless like in the scenario I was in, in Vienna, again pushing myself again haha :p
But sometimes I get those symptoms even though there is no exertion… So don’t blame me when I think my time is short ok? Haha the reason for those symptoms is because the heart must work harder to move the reduced amount of oxygen through out the body… thus causing such symptoms to arise.. Also studies have shown that the human heart has a number of beats to it, since I’ve been already exerting it for years, at such a young age.. I wonder how many more beats I still have? Haha so don’t wait, if you want to bitch to me or whatever do it now… :p
Also due to lack of oxygen, sometimes I feel weak, dizzy or suffer from headaches, I have yet to pass out haha.. I keep my consciousness as much as possible.. But this usually occurs when I change positions like standing up. My fatigue is apparently caused by having not enough oxygen carried around the body… =.=’
Apparently insomnia is also caused by anaemia?? What kind of site was that? Rarely do I suffer from RLS (restless legs syndrome) well not really sure since I m always shaking my leg anyway haha.. It feels uncomfortable if I just don’t move my leg, hence the leg shaking which got me frowns from everyone since I’m a girl.. So I tried to reduce it… but this disorder actually causes an uncomfortable feeling in the legs that can only be relieved by movement, and sleep is difficult for people with RLS, (I do experience such problems from time to time…) so next time just let me shake my leg okay? Haha
Haha being irritable is a symptom of anaemia.. So blame my lack of haemoglobins haha :p I also bruise easily, but it’s not really because of anaemia that I do though, I think haha..
So basically that’s bout it I guess… from that do you understand now why I can’t take cigarette smoke? I already lack oxygen and it’s cutting out my oxygen even further… and well, why I don’t really like to exercise is also because of that haha, I feel so damned tired, and there was once I went jogging with my siblings, and well not good, couldn’t breath? So ya, I shunned exercise, which is not good, I can still do “gentle” not so strenuous exercises.. Also feeding me with food rich in iron, B12 or folate actually won’t help me much haha.. It will help a bit I guess.. So I should make it a habit to eat my vitamins and folic acid? (does help actually, but lazy and forgetful…) Haha
And yes, to a certain friend, you know who you are, if you read this far that is… it irritates me when you say that it’s for pregnant women, true pregnant women take it, but its purpose is to increase their red blood cell production cause the mother and baby needs the oxygen, so anaemic patients especially folate deficiency anaemic patients take it. But whatever la, no offence but you weren’t a biology student.. Sigh… haha but it really annoys me endlessly when people are ignorant, but who am I to say when I’m also ignorant on so many things, I’m one of the most ignorant people on this planet haha but the difference I guess lies in asking people bout it? Instead of making statements…
Like example when people say anaemia, there are different types of anaemia, the severe kind and the minor kind. Don’t simply say that anaemia patients are bed ridden, if that is so, a lot of people will be in bed. (Happened recently, didn’t get the chance to tell my friend this properly… ) Besides anaemia is only a minor thing, people can go on with their life as normal, we just have to take more nutrients than you normal people…
So that’s it, if you suffer from any of the symptoms stated above than go and check with a doctor, google anaemia for the full extensive list…(I don’t suffer from all ailments.. if not my quality of life would be crap… and actually some of the symptoms are impossible to associate with me, who says anaemia patients have poor appetite??) if you have anaemia and why, is it because one of your chromosomes are mutated, or your digestive system isn’t working well enough to absorb the required nutrients, or because your body can’t break down the products you eat to provide your body with the nutrients you need? The reasons are many.
I know that I always said I am allergic to cigarette smoke, but my research has shown that it’s not true, forgive me for my ignorance, cause I researched allergic reactions, and well I’ve experienced them before, and now recall that the reactions stop after I take anti histamines, or get a shot, but I don’t have to take a shot for that, and if I always need to take a shot.. Honestly I would rather jump of a building, as some of you may know why.. Though I might get used to the shots? haha
But allergic reactions that I’ve experienced before.. Cause unknown and known are skin rashes and difficulty breathing, the only two I’ve only experienced, for those who know the reason for the second allergy, I say, please take care of me, haha if you treasure me as your friend that is, if not you can just leave me there to die ok? Hahha よろしくね (yoroshiku ne) :p reminds me of my classmate Norman in SAM, he told the whole class, “if you wish to kill me it’s very easy…” =.=’ haha but I don’t want the sin of killing a person on my karma, and well I treasure friends to much to kill them :p if I don’t treasure you, err.. muahahaha…
So I must congratulate you, my caring friend or relative, which ever you are.. Or alien if you so happen to be, for reading this far, at this point my post has reached 8 pages in Microsoft words. Font 12, times new roman.. haha
Banzai then haha.. For reading this far, as I type this.. I was actually discouraged from writing bout my condition, as my dad says that the internet is so open.. Hence the name world wide web hahha
But, anaemia, is a common problem and it doesn’t really affect the lifestyle of the patient afflicted with it, (I’m almost as active as a normal person, guess I’m just too lazy and stingy to exercise? Haha but I do suck at sports, I lack coordination and flexibility; maybe I should take up swimming hehe) in fact quite a number of people don’t realise they are anaemic. So ya.. Use this post against me how you like? I don’t see what you can do with it.. What deny me a job because I’m anaemic? =.=’ that will get you sued for discrimination and for all you know you already have anaemics working under you haha.. hmm just thought about it, but insurance agents can’t deny you insurance, this is not life threatening, and you are actually healthy anyway haha..
Sources, satoshi kun, my mother, some random people here and there, wikipedia and some online sites I googled up.. :p
a few weeks back, i had this dream, don't know whether you can call it a nightmare or a normal dream since i was dying in that dream...
but basically i remember it to be something like this... i am with a friend, can't remember who that is, and well that friend showed me a porcupine, which as i was looking at it, suddenly shot.. it's spikes at me.. and it was like being hit with hundreds of those needles.. and the thing is that it jsut went straight through, stabbing my heart, my lungs, everything i could feel the pain, couldn't breath. and the friend who was with me, wanted to take me to the hospital, but there was no way of getting there, seems like i was being dragged a long in a daze.. there was no blood though, cause apparently the needles were holding it in..
you know first aid, where let say there is a shard of glass embedded in your arm you are adviced agains removing it, cause it is actually stemming the blood flow.. so that you don't bleed to death..
and well, i was in fact like diying... and i did... despite the requests to "hold on, we are almost there" dreaming about my own death.. i didn't feel afraid.. cause as a tarot reader.. i know that when i deal the death card, it doesn't always mean actualy death... so after much thought, i decided to have the dream translated.. and well currently i can't think how to write my biology report on my body condition haha, thuogh i m getting the idea.. so make do with the dream report first haha.. this is what i gathered from the dream dictionary..
to make it as short as possible i took only what i felt relevant..
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Porcupine
To see a porcupine in your dream, suggests that you need to look out for yourself and protect yourself from emotional or psychological harm. Trust and honesty are important qualities. Alternatively, it indicates that there is a situation which you need to approach with openness. Someone in your waking life may not be revealing their vulnerability.
some of you may know what i am going through, and well i've decided to put my guard down and give myself a chance, but my dream is telling me to put the guard back up.. sigh...
but if you look at the alternate, i need to approach a situation with openness, so either my guard is still up, or it's down.. i'm confused...
Needle
A needle is also symbolic of some emotional or physical pain.
being stabbed by a hundreed of these.. enough said?
Attack
To dream that you are being attacked by an animal, is a warning to be careful with those around you. Take notice on who you know in your waking like that shares and exhibits the same qualities of the animal that attacked you in your dream.
what is the qualities of a porcupine?? sharp and quiet?? than who falls into that category??
Pain
To dream that you are in pain, signifies that you are being too hard on yourself with regards to a situation that was out of your control. It may also be a true reflection of real pain that exists somewhere in your body. Dreams can reveal and warn about health problems.
am i being hard on myself?
Heartbeat
To hear a heartbeat in your dream, suggests that you are not confronting or recognizing your feelings. You need to approaching thing head-on. Alternatively, a heartbeat may symbolize life or fear. You are feeling threatened in some way.
i admit i deny a lot of feelings because of the rules i set myself.. but i also think i feel threatened... =='
Lungs
lungs may indicate a stressful situation and refer to a relationship/situation in which you feel suffocated.
i think it speaks for itself?
Suffocating
To dream that you are suffocating, signifies that you are feeling smothered or oppressed by some situation/relationship. Something or someone is holding your back. You are experiencing stress and tension.
hmm~ same as above?
Death
To dream of your own death, indicates a transitional phase in your life. You are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Alternatively, you are trying desperately to escape the demands of your daily life.
reading too much of those books??
Die
To dream that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or in your life. Although such a dreams may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm and is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.
i guess this one applies contrary to the one below?? unless i am actually feeling strangeled by a situation??
On a negative note, to dream that you die may represent involvement in deeply painful relationships or unhealthy, destructive behaviors. You may feeling depressed or feel strangled by a situation or person in your waking life. Perhaps your mind is preoccupied with someone who is terminally ill or dying. Alternatively, you may be trying to get out of some obligation, responsibility or other situation. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
conclusion: i'm not sure.. but i guess it suggests.. i have to be more open to my feelings, and there is a new change?? i don't know..
so much for my ressearch... i suck at this.. hope my thalassemia post doesnt turn out like this
well for some of them i felt like i had two choices.. yes i'm greedy haha, so what is a girl to do,but retake the test with her second choices in mind :p
This advice was passed along to me from a counselor; it was great to hear so I wanted to share it.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends."
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.
All men are not dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...There is nothing cute about
baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship consists
of two whole individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.
Dating is fun; even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are, and you're
always readily available to him—he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies.
You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them, and an entire lifetime to forget them.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Got this from, someone..who asked not to be named.. haha
well it is interesting to share.. i know most of my friends are guys, so it won't hurt for you guys to read this as well.. so that they know how to treat women.. and well.. not to be sexist.. but women should know how to treat men as well, and i agree it is a two way street and compromise is important in any relationship not only in love..
currently doing some research on thalassemia, anaemia and allergy reactions, i don't know why i had the sudden thought to blog about my non tolerance to ciggeratte smoke, but to blog about that, i need to research and blog about my condition as well... i have to go to the root of it all.. and well, i guess the magazine at the dental clinic started the ball rolling here haha
wish me luck in my research, i haven't done such things since SAM 3 years ago, and i feel like i'm writting a biology paper, for a project or something.. thanks goodness i have the biologist satoshi kun to aid me hehe but i don't know how and when to start, and osme of you may know that i don't do a "rangka/structure" for my essays.. so attempting to do one now haha..
that post may be quite lengthy.. so err.. if you are just passing by or have no interest its fine by me.. but first i will have to get started on writing it.. :p
okay its not that big a news... apparently anemia causes depression.... so ermm... problem solved?? but i still feel like i lack something in life, and teh drive to go on..
but anyway thats the first time i head that anemia causes depression.. usually this are the sypmtoms that i hear about... and do experience.. from time to time.. --> anemia symptoms
how did i find out about it? well i went for a dental check up today, and in the waiitng room i came across a women's magazine.. and saw that.. but err... well i don't know..
by the way nothing is wrong with my teeth yea!!but my mouse is acting up, can;t seem to be able to click properly.. sigh...
and with regards to the post before this.. the conversation really did take place, and no i m not screening for candidates (friend asked me that amusing questiion) but it's a good idea though haha :p
on a final note.. recent books i ve been reading (still not done reading) 1. the purpose driven life (christian book) 2.liao fans four lessons (bhuddist teachings)
==' so far basicaly all religion says.. is devote yourself to god... ==' i will read more and write more later...
Kazoku no kaiwa... family's conversation???? everyone who aren't in my family please diregard the conversation....(but if you stil want to read i can't stop you.. i know it's a lame post.. so err unless you somehow found it interesting.. pretend this post doesn't exist ok? :p) this post is more like for my sis to read... but i don't have a blog meant for just family members... and its so troublesome to have so many blogs..... so err.... like tat ler haha
having dinner the other day with my parents... roughly the conversation was like this...
me: mmm.. this is nice... ba, you cooked today...?
dad: who else? your mum sick liao
mum:...... *eating away*
me: hmmm so nice, ba can cook...
dad: yalor, your mom lucky lor, really share the workload in the house... lightens the burden a lot...
mum:...... *still eating away... ignoring the conversation gua.....*
me: haha, so means next time before i marry i must send my boyfriend to train under you, you become the sifu, on cooking and house chores to him haha >:)
mum:.... like that you don't have to marry already...*thought she was ignoring?? :p*
dad: .... *grins..*
me: then ar, before marry must ask can you cook and do housework lor...? *kekeke >:)*
mum: not "can" but must ask "do you like" to do housework and cook....
dad: ..... *wonder what he was thinking, but being the smart man he kept his mouth shut, let the women talk :p is he starting to feel used??? haha does my dad like to do housework and cook???!! hmmm~*
me: hahah... i see, so clever la mum, come to think of it, i also know how to cook and do housework but i don't like to do, so i don't do... haha good one...
mum: ."...." *i think she just realised* after the guy ask you to go marry a maid..... haha
dad:...... *still keeping silent??? *
me: ...... ==' don't marry lor hahah..
mum & dad: ....... *must be thinking "oh no, she will be stuck with us for years to come then...doing nothing in the house but eat & sleep...." well that's what i think they are thinking... :p *
haha but honestly now that i think of it.. i think the better question is can you cook and clean? don't neccessarily have to like it, just like in reading, i didn't like it, but at least i knew how to do it, so i won't die there or whatever.. so at least since you know it's easier, like in this case, when wifey fall sick, at least hubby (and children) won't starve and still get to eat homecooked food... :p and well wifey gets healthy food while she recovers as well hahah
on another note, i just finished watching a japanese drama called hanazakari no kimi tachi e, roughly translated as.. to you in full bloom?? i don't know my japanese sucks... =='
short form for the drama is hana kimi, there is the japanese and the taiwan version, but i watched the japanese version.... really funny, but the ending part was kind of sad, and i could really relate to mizuki... eventhough she spent less than a year with the guys at the school, but leaving is so hard, especially when you are leaving for another country...
i know cause i felt the same as well when i had to leave my mates, on 30th june... sigh.... and i'm not ashamed to admit it that i cried.. so ya haha this friends are worth my tears.. it really feels so heart wrenching to leave the people that you became so close.. well though the time together was short.. the memories will last a life time, and as nakatsu said in hana kimi.. japan and america are still on the same planet.. so ya the same goes for me, europe and malaysia are sitll on the same planet.. :) one day we can always see each other again haha... till than give thanks to the internet :)
ooh btw hana kimi has a manga too... the manga is well.. kind of long, and in some way i felt that it's better than the drama.. might want to give it a try, disregard the lousy drawing. i was laughing at almost every chapter.. haha :p
i've been accused of not only spamming the blog of others, but even my own... well.. i lose in that matter, as can be seen lately, i really have been spamming my own blog what with all those stupid videos and tests from blogthings...
so as proof... satoshi kun.. i don't spam my blog haha.. here are some delayed pictures....
i still have yet to post the pictures from perth, and well teh bentong trip with xian ai.. the reading gathering in malaysia.. and well if conenction permits and time as well, i was thinking of posting some pictures from europe.. i only got them recently, (okay, not that recent, but recent..) and well there are somereally nice pics.. but that will have to depend on my mood...
current project now.... is torturing.. ooops did i say that? err i mean making my music student 智君 (satoshi kun) complete pachabel's canon, than i can teach him the piano duet from corpse bride.. :) also i wanna finish learning the song taiyou no uta on guitar... but my strumming sucks.. and the guitar sounds weird ==' though satoshi kun just tuned it back today... =='
currently planning to go for the malaysian philharmonic ochestra... huey.... where are you??? :p
piano concerto? :p
okay enough with the crap, now to the few miserable pictures, which took a while to load... bloody maxis...
yea.. the climbers...posing after the "walk".. in case some of you guys missed it, go to ccymie's blog for the report he did on our outing haha... from left if you tilt your head left, haha, there is nick leong, me, huey, and satoshi kun.. well ccy ler haha :p
at the hanging bridge.. with my one annd only.... keke ;p huey..
posing la.. since resting anywya.. haha i really lack stamina for this kind of things.. which caused ccy to suggest going everyday o_0' but i really am an unfit person.. and i suck at sports ==' sigh...
well that's all took those darn cough tablets again, cause my cough was killing me... =='
Ever took 3 shots of absinth in a row? i have.. and well the medication makes me feel like i took 2 shots.... such strong medication cough tablets are... and the effect lasts for hours.. at least 12 hours from what i've noticed.. which was so not good when i went for class today..
the night before, a saturday, class ended on time 7.15pm, well actualy 720pm... so since horng yang was around as well, xian ai and i thought to go home together. and well since he drove we went for dinner, at uptown, at a place called umai-ya.. pictures of the food is still with xian ai.. :p will get them later, food wasn't bad.. a bit on the pricey side.. not for students definetely :p but yummy :)
anyway, we had dinner and were chatting nicely, and as is my habit i consumed lots of green tea as we chatted... yes yes... some of you are going... "what on earth are you thinking??"
and yes, what on earth was i thinking??!! (obviously i wasn't thinking at all..) i already know that drinking tea after 6pm and drinking lots of it will cause me a sleepless night... but guess i was too distracted by the conversation... (conversation between future lawyers.... no need to elaborate la :p)
even with my medication, the super strong one, that makes me feel like i took 2 shots of absinth, didn't help, i couldn't sleep much... and the medication only wears off after like 12 hours, and i took it at 1130pm at night... my class? 9-2pm sigh
so i was half asleep in class till about 1pm.. seriously wanted to go home.. but since i could still force myself to concentrate..... but the lecturer is evil.... more evil than me...more evil than.... well evil...........
he let us go late and even told us, that starting from today, expect to go home 30minutes to and hour late every sunday... :(( sob sob~~
Arghhh..... spoilt by the university of reading's timetable.. but i heard the BVC BAR in the UK is even more torturous till people are breaking down in tears... so err. tat leaves me with no avenue to complain.. but i don't care.... :p i m evil hehe
anyway.. time for medication and bed then ;p
sorry to my two precious cousins.. i m not free on friday to watch a movie, as my class ends at 930pm and on saturday i have class from 1030am till 715 pm.. woe is me.....
i need some anime theraphy, but no mood.... ==' and time..... guess the guitar will have to do :p
p/s: dear friends, and relatives, and aliens or whatever, the next time you go out with me, especially at night, please control my tea intake, english tea, chinese tea, green tea, as long as there is caffiene please stop me from overdosing on it, tea = drugs to me, addictive, cause i love tea, (no coffee for me.. don't know why, black sheep of my coffee loving family, but like i care..) so yes, as some of you know,here's the little equation...
sayaka + lots of tea at night = little or no sleep at night = no appetite + nauseous = not eating for a whole day = gastric = miserable + irritable sayaka....
(how am i going to survive the working world!!!??? )
ai kun, why didn't you stop me?? (何で？？where is gene when you need him?? ケンジ君。。どこえ？？) you know of my problem!!! why, why, why??? guess she forgot... and well also my fault, for being unable to stop my errrr....."addiction"?? for tea? haha
hahhaha.... shocked? watch the video haha... enjoy... hehe :p
done watching?? :p
cute video right..? when i was in the UK, some discussion brought this up, there is actually a song, based on it, and mel let me listen to it, i really forgot that such a song existed.. and well,accidentally stumbled onto it ahaha i was at fansub, to download my jap drama when i saw this.. and haha.. thought i would share haha
well... whether it's true or not i leave it to you to judge
You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal
You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing. You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.
And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile. You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.
You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid. Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.
Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else
You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly
Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."
on my part personally i believe it's true, but a friend asked me, do i really have friends from since when i was a kid? well honestly no, i do have some friends from when i was in highschool, when i was 13, but i wasn't close to them, till well lately,in the past few years..
and honestly i find it hard being around some of them as well, as i feel taken for granted and all.. unappreciated.. but well... guess they are like that.. to those who read this, don't worry it doesn't concern you ahha, those that read my blog are usually the ones that bother.. it's the ones that don't read... at all haha ;p but that's not always true as well, some of them don't have the time, or whatever.. but sigh.. what ever la... i do have some friends who do take care of me, and are there for me, and that's enough la :)
under the influence of drugs... taken cough medicine but refuses to sleep,feels like i just took 2... or was it 3 shots of absinth... i feel like a drunkard.. but since i don't want to sleep cause i woke up not long ago, i ended doing stuff like this again...
i think now i know why people like to take drugs.... and well get themselves drunk haha...
You Are an Alien
You're so strange, people occasionally wonder if you're from another world. You don't try to be different, but you see most things from a very unique, very offbeat perspective. Brilliant to the point of genius, you definitely have some advanced intelligence going on. No matter what circles you travel in, you always feel like a stranger. And it's a feeling you've learned to like.
Your greatest power: Your superhuman brain
Your greatest weakness: Your lack of empathy - you just don't get humans
You have a real thirst for bliss, and you consider yourself a true hedonist. And you're not afraid to walk alone in life, if it means getting what you truly crave. You truly enjoy entrancing people. Not to mention the ensuing pleasures of the flesh. Your tastes have been called decadent and bizarre. You usually give in to your temptations, no matter how primal
Your greatest power: Your flawless ability to seduce and charm
In general, you feel confident and together. But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure. Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually. So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!
You want a guy with a big... brain. And of course it would be nice if he were a total hottie, but you're not counting on it. What's on the inside is what counts for you. (Besides, you can always change the outside later!)
Honesty is important to you, but generally, you try not to be brutal about it. You'll sugar coat the truth when you need to... and tell a white lie when necessary.
Maybe it’s because of those forwarded mails, but somehow I believe that friends are the siblings that we couldn’t have, or well the relative that we couldn’t have. They are the parents, who take care of you when you have no family around, the siblings that you can tell your secrets to…
And well they are just people whom you can trust, let yourself loose, laugh, and have fun. It is true that every family has its problems, and it is no exception that sometimes we fight, we make up, and laugh together again.
But unlike family, friends can be lost and they can be gained, they can be chosen out of the billions of people on this planet. Unlike family, whom we are born into and stuck with for life, it is sad that some friends have walked out of our life, but as a saying goes, when one door closes, another opens, when friends walks out, we find out who our true friends are, who will stay by our side, on those rainy days. And sometimes we even make new friends.
The friends that have been with us all this while, and have formed somewhat of an extended family to us, with all our heart, we wish to be what they are to us, to be the same to them, taking care of them, and to be there for them, cause we love them as much as they love us. Friendship, like any relationship is a two way street…
Well family is important too ok :) some of us may not have happy relations with our families, but at least we still have those friends who have always been there for years and are like family, and well as for our real biological family, my family is close knit, so I can safely say, like my friends, I have been blessed with a good family.
*It is through prosperity that our friends know us, but it is through adversity that we know our friends…* ~ from my dear friend MikexMichelle ~
*I remember more than merely the episode when we first met, but the entire novel of our story* ~from My Dear Friend Satoshi kun~
Love all of you guys, and to those who are overseas, Europe, UK, America, Australia… wherever you are… *Big Hugz* :)
Was cleaning up some old stuff and found some stuff nostalgic.. Hence… this little short, ermm …..don't know what to call it haha... No tears please haha..
It’s amazing how a year can change a person…. Maybe when I was in malaysia I stayed in doors too much…. Coming back from the united kingdom, I noticed that I have changed a little here and there, the most obvious transactions, well if I realise them, they are obvious is…
My sudden likeness for classical music, I mean before I left I liked it, but now, I’m listening to it at almost any opportunity.
My sudden passion in music, I play the piano more now than I used to, though I no longer go for classes. And well I’ve even picked up learning the guitar… my sensei being satoshi kun :p
My inability to cross roads… not to say that I totally can’t cross roads, but I am now more afraid to cross roads, I wasn’t like this before I left, I would just walk straight into oncoming traffic… what has happened???!! =.=’
My conception of zebras crossing, initially when I first came back, I had to mentally keep repeating to myself, not to just walk out even though it is a zebra crossing, I MUST look out first, well there was once or twice when I just walked out, but luckily now a days I never go out alone haha, or I might be under a car :p
I think I travel Europe too much, that I look right than left than right again… haha
I keep comparing our transportation system to that of Europe, specifically London, but my conclusion is always, we have better trains but London has the better network, system and connection of trains…
I miss the weather in the United Kingdom… but thank god there are no evil beetles to go knocking on my window, and at least we have the invention called air conditioning…
I go out more than I used to before I left. According to my mum I have become more sociable… Last time even if you called me to go out, I would give all sorts of excuses and was totally lazy, but now, I guess cause most of my friends are leaving, or actually have left, and some are back for holiday, so I guess I want to spend more time with them :p
Somehow ended up being closer to my two cousins? We kind of drifted a part at some point, but I guess cause now they can drive that’s why hehe :p
I have the urge to learn how to drive, maybe it’s cause my usual “drivers” are no longer around… :p and well when I drove for a bit in Australia and well on a kampung road here, (driving below 60km :p haha) it felt kind of nice to drive, but I’m still paranoid of the other cars =.=’ highways and housing areas suck!! Imagine when I said that I wanted to drive to my dad he stared at me like I’m some alien…
Am doing my best to learn the roads and what lanes to stick to, well guess it’s due to the urge to want to drive, last time I would just sleep at the back of the car :p
I’m not to sure about this, but I’m less naggy? Or more apathethic? Am more aware of my surroundings… unlike last time where I was always super blur, I m slowly getting more aware, well I’ve got two friends who gave me a little lecture and some pointers anyway haha…
According to my relatives, I am more responsible & independent… =.=’ I will let my parents vouch for that, since I m still the old lazy me haha.. :p but actually I just got irritated with the mess…
I think when I had nothing to do in my room in reading I was more often than not always cleaning it, and damn I think I brought that habit back to Malaysia =.=’ my room received a total new make over from me….
Ermm not so addicted to anime? Well last time, I had to watch and watch and watch, but now I have better control, if I have other things to do, which no one but I can do…. Then I will stop and do it.. I find that weird, but I guess I gained more self control…
I think my metabolism rate slowed down =.=’ can’t eat as much as I used too… but at least I still eat normal portions…
No offence meant but, when I came back, and started to go out to places with people, like KL, BU, I felt that Malaysians are so short =.=’ haha, not to say that I’m tall, I never noticed before I left, but when I came back I noticed that actually Malaysian guys are kind of short, and well actually it applies to Malaysians in general, but as we all know, Caucasians, are bigger built and taller, so that could be why, living and walking around London so much, guess I got used to that, as I said, I hardly went out when I was in Malaysia last year.
I am comparing a lot of things to the UK, not matter how much I try not to, I end up doing it, like the smoking ban, the alcohol, the transportation, the weather. The list goes on and on…
I suddenly don’t mind having to cook my food if there is nothing to it, but subject to mood. Guess it was cause in London I had to always take care of my own meals…
Am a bit tired of travelling, but I guess it’s with the company and what I’m seeing haha, at the moment, no more churches, and museums for me please. But I do welcome wild life parks and scenic sights…
I realised I like sights with water, such as lakes.. More than mountains, but I am always comparing to Switzerland, the water was so clear and nice… ;p
Australian sanitary napkins are a good source for some general information?? Well maybe only the Libra brand haha, they have some things like if you keep a goldfish in a dark room, it will eventually turn white.. there are a few more which I will type out later.. If you want to see this, take the napkins of Qantas (Australia’s airline) haha :p
I have become more feminine, since going to the UK. Believe it or not, compared to last time, now a days, I actually feel like putting on make up sometimes when I go out… and well according to some of the guys, who claims that I have been abducted by aliens.. I do and say more girly things now… =.=’
I take care of my skin now… before this, I was too lazy to apply body cream or whatever cream, but now.. I automatically do it without thinking…guess cause in UK I always had to apply. The weather there was too dry… :p
My skin condition, especially on my face is bad!! Arghh.. bloody exams…
According to Nicholas leong, I lost weight????!!!!! But Huey said that my face got a little fat…
The next few where told to me by nick haha…
I became darker, cause got really sunburnt in Europe when I was touring…. Sob sob.. all those time trying to get fairer, but I have accepted my fate.. I was always tan… and always will be, at least I m less susceptible to skin cancer haha..
Apparently I’ve become more patient, and after complaining I let go of what ever was bothering me. I don’t know whether it’s true…. :p
Also I complain less…. I don’t know whether it’s true… but oh well…
I pay more emphasis on communication…. When watching a show and talking on the phone, I pay a bit more attention to the person on the line and I don’t talk so much bout roscoe on the phone…
I watch less TV… OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I totally don’t read the newspaper… cause in the UK no newspaper and TV :(
I curse more now…. I say the F word to easily….. Compared to last time… but am trying to stop that though…
Oh and according to huey I have more stamina.. based on today’s hill climbing haha, must be all my touring where I had to walk everywhere.. but climbing up.. is a little strenuous for me, as it used different muscles than normal walking…
Well that’s all I can think of for now, and my friends and family can think about.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
十二日十月二００七年：金曜日
Woke up at 530am today, to go for a walk up bukit gasing for the view of the sunrise, with huey, ccy and nick leong.
Arrived late, as the sun was already rising. Upon entering the hill, got a fright when I saw an old man standing unmoving in the middle of the path, stopped my friends and asked whether if that was a human, confirmed it was and walked on. It was a really good work out…
After the hill, we dropped huey at her gym, so energetic, after the climb she still wanted to work out.. dropped nick back at his home to change his pants.. which somehow didn’t like the climb and showed it. Haha, and after that the remaining 3 of us headed off to ss2 for dim sum.
Finished breakfast and headed home for a shower, than huey’s dad came and sent all 4 of us to BU for a movie, watched the seeker the dark is rising… I got so conned by the damned trailer.. and well nick was giving interesting insights about the movie after it.. I thought a few things odd but didn’t bother to mention, and well apparently they are quite important as nick explained after that.. haha.
When the movie was over we decided to take the bus back to KJ, but the buses were weird, the plaque on the bus said KJ but they said that they were not going there, so we opted for a taxi which didn’t seem to want to show up. So I called my dad to pick the 4 of us up, and sent us all home.
Apparently chi ming saw me and gang waiting outside the taxi stand.. haha speaking of him, he came over to update my anime and give me my manga.. went to…gembira for Sarawak mee, came back and I started to watch bleach the movie, so he left, but I didn’t manage to finish the movie till today, cause yesterday I had to stop the movie and go for a dinner with Nicholas leong and Nicholas seoh…
Apparently it was part of Nicholas seoh’s course. So learnt a few new table etiquettes, went to yum cha at the mamak near the taylor’s hotel and tourism building, than nick seoh’s brother sent us home, went to bed early as I had the hill climbing which I was taling about and shall now return…
So after my dad dropped everyone home, that was it, had dinner, and am now typing this.. (the thing above was typed earlier…) I know that this post is so unlike me, as usually I like to write a lot, and give every minuscule detail, but now that it is the evening, I am even more tired, and truth be told I’ve caught the flu. I either caught it off ccy, or it’s all my fault, where I have been consuming lots of spicy food lately, or it could be my wisdom tooth which is pushing its way out… it caused me to fall ill last year.. So it could do the same this year…
Actually wasn’t feeling that well when I went out with the Nicholases, but I was still fine and still energetic until I came back from Bandar Utama, I guess 4 hours of sleep, climbing a hill, and well.. Just about doing anything but rest must have taken it’s toll on me, and now I’ m craving for sleep although it is not even 930pm. So am signing off..
wrote this before satoshi kun, hence only adding this now, for a more amusing version of what happened in bukit gasing, go to ccymie's blog, love his version hehe
the thing one does when bored... well i was waiting for some stuff to donwload.. and no matter how much i hate my conenction i have to live with it, so make the best of it? by doing stuff like this... i actually did a few after the first one i posted, but my modem battery died (i brought the modem into my room and let it run on battery) so i didn't manage to post ==' and smart me didn't save....
anywya don't think that this stuff holds much truth... it's just like horoscopes we read in the papers, it's so damned general that, at some point, it hits home.. but it could apply to almost anybody.. if you get what i mean :p
You are a bit of a slacker - though you can pull it together and live a somewhat normal life. If you're young, this is probably phase you'll outgrow. And if you're already grown up, you need to get off the couch a bit more!
You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard. When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems. But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.
You are a total feminist. This doesn't mean you're a man hater (in fact, you may be a man). You just think that men and women should be treated equally. It's a simple idea but somehow complicated for the world to put into action.
Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence
Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.
You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.
Like most people, the thought of being a vampire has crossed your mind. But you're not sure if you'd do it, even if you could. Living forever doesn't sound half bad, if you could live forever with the people you love the most. But do vampires even love? And would the vampire version of you even be you? It's all too much to contemplate. Luckily, the chances of you ever becoming a vampire are astronomically low.
What you would like best about being a vampire: Living forever
What you would like least about being a vampire: Blood stained teeth
You are quite outgoing You are a social connector - you know a ton of people While you aren't a wild extrovert, you are a great talker A fantastic storyteller, you keep everyone laughing
You're not miserable, but you could stand to be a lot happier. Focus on what's right in the world, and you'll be happier than you ever thought possible.
You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy
When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.
You're cool and collected, even when someone really gets under your skin. And while you don't blow up when you're angry, you know how to express your anger calmly. You don't bottle emotions up or let them get out of control. For you, violence would never be an option.
It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!
When you communicate, you like to get to the point. You're not afraid to say what's on your mind - and leave it at that. Talking about your emotions drains you. You rather keep them to yourself. You prefer solving problems to wallowing in your sorrows.
took this test last time, and well took it again for fun since i had nothing to do while talking to my sister, so the results are much the same, with a little difference, but i do dispute number 2 strongly, i don't want to be living in hell one day and heaven next, i want something stable...
as for the rest, i say it is roughly correct,i dont want a guy that thinks he is so damn free to do whatever he wants (i can and will get possessive i guess), errr as to me being loyal..and won''t change, i dont know bout that, the 4th one is so duh, who can live with a person like that? the rest are right la i guess, i think most girls think that way...
but not the last one, i don't thirst for love , but i guess that i will do whatever, and don't fall easily....
but anyway that doesn't really matter... this things are just for fun :p and my dad wants to use the computer haha...tata
-Oracl3-
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
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