The smooth surface,
Almost mirror like,
Watching it unknowingly,
I entered its flow,
Unconsciously submerged by it,
Fighting to grasp the sky,
Before being pulled down again,
Following it’s flow,
Unable to turn back,
The road is set;
I shall head to sea,
Can you see the future?
It’s unpredictable
✿Oracl3✿
Take this test and lets see how well you know me, a lot of people say that i'm an open book so let's see how true is that, as sherlock holmes once said to watson, "you see but you do not observe", the test was made hard on purpose, though there were some easy ones there as well... so don't feel guilty or whatever if you didn't score as high as you expect, it's for fun anyway :)
thanks to all who have done the test so far... and well.. from what i can see from the test answers, i don't really potray myself as waht i seem to be, and that i have changed a little haha, cause kenji kept answering the stuff i liked in the past.. not blaming him haha, cause it was set up to trick him haha.. i know he knows me well, so to trick him... i put my past preferences there.. muahaha.. i m evil to him, but thankful he took it.. :p he only got stuff like shows wrong, those things do change from time to time.. but stuff like colour, food, books, author.. haha i m happy he still remembers..among all my friends he knew me best :p
my sister has also tried the test haha.. looks like those who knows me well, has an aveage score of 55, anyone up to beat that? the test is tricky :p
and who on earth is this happy monkey brain who took the test ?? == (i found out it's yong luk...)
to the others who are willing to take the test, well do go on, give it a try, it's just for fun anyway, it will let me know how much i've changed as well :p
Do not read the part below if you intend to take the test honestly, read it after you've taken the test. thanks :)
if you've done the test and wanna check your answers click on Test Answers NO CHEATING!! well what is there to cheat == our dear friend, mr derrick chan yee sin, tired the test about 8 times to get it right.. man as a best friend he has me worried that he is insane.. then again... he was always insane haha... but still no one has beat the score of 55 in their first try..
one thing that i m a bit suprised.. is that.. a lot of people think i like to sleep.... == do i really sleep that much?? !!
and to thank you guys for trying here is a lil video.. enjoy haha...
on the 23rd of febuary 2007,friday.. the Reading University Malaysian and Singaporean Society finally had their malaysian night!! entitled buta meaning blind..
it's the story of love between a malay boy and a chinese girl during the comunis era in malaysia... the blindness of others who only saw skin colour... and failed to look through their pure love... touching, funny, entertaining.. you name it, we have it!! :)
we started preparations since november 2006, and into january & febuary 2007..... and our hard work all paid off!! it was a success... as far as i can say.. it was only one word.. GOOD!! ahha kudos to everyone who put in all their effort, and thanks to everyone who came to show their support.. now for some pictures...
pictures here are courtery of derrick and kenny.. there are loads more.. but i have to collect them from people... it's here and there cause lately i 've been forgetting my camera ==
hip hop dancers... in costume.. withour make up yet haha... from the left, kenny, wendy, me and stephaine..
same people a lil blurred.. minus stephaine...
the indian dancers.. all dressed and ready to perform... from left in red, swee yin, caryn, stephaine, michelle aka mimi, wincci.. the cheographer of all the dances accept joget.. nori, one of the person in charge of the joget, christine, veevern, michelle aka chelle, and uma... goodness knows what desmond is doing there... haha imagine him wearing one of the costumes here?? ewww hahah :p
the chinese fan dancers... and the mamasan.. haha.. fr left, stephaine, derrick.. he was just in it.. this pic is from him afterall haha.. christine, jyy huey, mika.. eddy the mamasan, and hairdresser for the night :p and lastly jyy mei.. :p
preparing backstage... :p squating we have jsaon, solomon. nur'i another one incharge of joget, wincci, standing from left, aiyee, wendy, xian ai, mimi,me, yue lin, behind xian ai is alicia, and caryn....
ok everyone.. give it all you got!! final moment before it all starts...
hip hop dancers getting ready backstage for our performance.. we have derrick and me, xian ai, jyy huey, wendy, nuri, stephaine, jyy mei, mika and kenny.. wincci isn't here cause she was giving an opening speech...
posing with the joget dancers.. well the guys.. the pics w the girls are with someone else.. anywya we have desmond.. standing so formal... == then there is me, derrick, jason and xian ai..taken during the intermission.. our parts were all done.. helping with the backstage :p don't my nails look nice muahahha
the buta crew!! its the same pic as the trailer below.... too many people la.. watch the trailer to find out who is who.. :p
posing with pol (who is from thailand) after the end of the show :p
lastly we had an after party at st georges.. i didn;t take any pics here...no it wasnt cause i was buzy drinking... it was cause.. i was playing MAHJONG!!!! ues my mahjong... oh... now it's relaly CNY for me muahhaha.... :p
when i get the other pictures i will load them onto facebook.. if you don't have a facebook account don't worry.. i will put a few of them here.. mostly those with my face though hahah :p
Title reads as yume meaning dream…. The other day I had a dream… it was totally weird haha.. So I looked up the meaning of it in the dream dictionary… and well this is what I got, and I must say.. It hits the spot, cause that’s how I feel…
There was this site that I used before whenever I got weird dreams, and after reading it through, and after relating it to whatever situation i was in at the time i had the dream, I did find that it interprets my dreams correctly…
an example was, when i felt like i was loosing a friend, those here in the UK and my sister will know which friend i was talking about, but a short update on that problem... is well, if that friend is going to treat me like that just because of what other's say, then that person is not matured enough, and doesn't treasure my friendship enough.. so that's it, i don't bother much about that friend already... i thought that i could get another close friend, but oh well, fate will have it.. that we will just be "arm's reach" friends... bottom line, the dream dictionary hit the spot on this problem of mine haha it was the same with my last crush as well haha... he was really hiding something from me haha, guess it was out of friendship and not to hurt me though :p
anyway back to this post...
I’ve just taken the part that is relevant to my feelings and the dream…
I tried to keep it in the order of how I dreamt it…
No explaining needed, it explains itself clearly…
** To dream that you are sleepwalking, signifies discontent and your ongoing struggle for contentment. This dream may also indicate that you are just "going through the motions" in your everyday life.
To simply see (but not use) a vacuum in your dream, suggests feelings of emptiness. You may be experiencing a void in your life.
If a wall stands in your way in a dream, there is a barrier obstructing your progress in real life.
To brush your teeth, foretells that some great struggle will be demanded of you in order to preserve your fortune.
To dream of toothpaste, means you are trying to protect yourself from anxiety and hurt.
To dream of loose teeth is a warning of untrustworthy friends
In general, dreams about losing one's teeth are common and suggest the dreamer feels powerless or out of control in a real life situation.
If your teeth fell out or you spit them out, you are anxious about money
To dream that you are bleeding represents a feeling of loss of power. You may be suffering from exhaustion or feeling emotionally drained. It may also denote bitter confrontations between you and your friends. Your past actions may have come back to haunt you. Try to avoid any sort of controversy with friends or relatives. **
The part about money… I’m not so sure.. though it’s not 100% ruled out, there are times when I m anxious about money.. who isn’t when the currency here is 7 time mores… =.= The rest… to me it hits the spot…
Well I haven’t had any real arguments with my friends… what more bitter… but yes I do feel emotionally drained…
It’s not because I m far from home or whatever.. As has been explained above.. I just feel empty... And I’m emotionally drained… I’ve never been homesick, cause I don’t have the chance to. In fact here is better cause I can talk to my sister more, cause of the time, and well.. My dad is always online and still nagging me, and my brother well, we don’t really talk much to start with, if you must say, the only thing I miss is my dog haha… though i don't say it much, cause whenever my brother or sister calls home or chat online, they always ask bout the dog that it annoys my mum, so i never ask for my dog... but mothers are mothers after all haha...
in fact my family members are online so much to talk to me that it is annoying, cause usually they don't give much attention to me.. i'm usually ignored, and left to my own devices.. that getting all this attention suddenly, is so annoying!!
I’ve always been a loner, so that’s just how it is.. だって私はずっと一人だけ。この寂しの感じもかまわないで。
People in depression get better over time... But I… I seem to be falling back into the pit after all my hard work of struggling to get out of that damned pit of depression… it’s so hard that I just feel like giving up… and I think in some ways I have…
How I wish I could just cry and let it all out, but there is no one that I feel like saying anything to… and don’t bother asking.. Most of you think you know me but you don’t. I won’t tell anything unless I want to, so bugger off and stop asking..
If you don’t know what to do, just leave me alone. That’s all I ask… leave me alone, I don’t want to hear anything from anyone.
And stop asking me to get a boyfriend!!! Like much help that will get me.. Just get a guy to hear me bitch/whine???!!! What the fuck is that man?! Isn’t that what friends are for? To hear you bitch/whine, listen, comfort you, then throw you straight back onto earth… well who am I to say since I’m a bad listener myself…
But yes, bottom line, stop telling me to get a boyfriend, it’s like asking me to add on to my problems... How will getting one when I’m down help me? When I’m no longer down (and if I don’t love him, getting one just because I m down, sounds like you are asking me to get one on a whim.. where are the feelings??!!) I will no longer need him then… then what… guys are humans too.. Ok… it’s like getting one to use only..
Shit man.. Sometimes you people are so heartless, and inhumane, how would you like it if someone only stuck to you so that you can comfort him or her whenever they are down, reply to their every whim. And when they are all happy and nice, they throw you into a corner.. just to use you for their own selfish needs!!
haha ironic, come to think of it, quite a lot of you guys do that to me, and I’m only just a friend… so I won’t do that to other people if I can help it. i always do my best to comfort people, and be there when they come to me... but then again.. it's human nature to be selfish, i m sort of missing that factor.. i ought to pick it up and make full use of it...
And all I have to say? I’m tired of this shit.. Tired of being strong, tired of trying to act like I’m ok, tired of acting like everything is ok… just tired…
I m not asking to be proved wrong or whatever, it’s just that I m tired… Of everything…
友達はいらない誰もいらない
i've changed, i m no longer the optimistic and altruistic person you once knew... so don't say i didn't warn you....
this post is just to wish all my friends and family who read my blog a happy chinese new year.. may this year be prosperous.. and ur wishes all come true... errr... i m kinda bad at this cos i m a banana.. so am not good with the chinese proverbs of wishing.. anyway.. gong xi fa cai..
and i m currently in london at my cousin's place, so you guys won't be seeing me online.. heck.. who is so free to come online now? everyone is out collecting ang paus.. haha.. tats y i m so free haha...
alright that's all may the year of the pig bring good luck to all..
according to this site my brother gave me, tigers are gonna have a good year.. this year.. we will see how it goes ya :p
i heard this story from mel the other day, regarding how pigeons can always find their way home haha.. she was in church when they told the story.. i think its interesting,, this is roughly how it goes... and mind u.. it's true...
scientists have always been curious as to how can pigoens always find their way back home, so they conducted a series of experiments, where they blindfolded the pigeons, brought them to places n set them free.. without fail, each and everyone on of them got home..
next they used electric waves to confuse the pigeon's brains... they still got home.. so they decided to place a burden on the pigeon's back, like a pack of batteries... and they set them all free.. all the pigeons made it back but one...
so using the tracer they searched for the pigeon, wondering where it has gone.. thinking that.. oh well the burden is too much so this one isn't coming home.. guess where they found it?? :p
in a cornfield...
it wasn;t eating.. and enjoyng itself in the cornfield...
actually the burden on it's back, was sthg like a bag, and teh strap had got caught in the poor pigeon's wing, so it couldn't fly... so it walked.. and the direction it was headed??
on saturday the 10th of febuary 2007 the university of reading's international focus group organised a trip to stratford upon avon.. the birthplace of william shakespeare.. i wouldn't say that i m a real fan of his.. but i like some of his works, and a lot of his famous works have been made into movies like romeo and juliet, the taming of teh shrew, hamlet.. etc.. and a lot of movies have been made based on it as well... so anyway.. i thought that i would go, and see what it's like...
we were greeted by the river avon or is it avon river == it's kind of frozen over...well it is winter anywya.. don't expect to see much..
out first stop was this errr.. dunno wat to call it, show? it was like a lil summarise thing on shakespeare works, and life,... his birth etc...
there were some pretty things in the shop .. but pretty things are pretty on the wallet too.. so tehre are only pictures haha
fairy... midsummers night dream.. ring a bell? :p
looks like a ghost?? the shakespearience, gave like a theatre 3D show, where the showed some famous parts of differnt famous plays, here we have the merchant of venice... looks sacry in the pic.. but it was quite nice there it was like this "guy", was tyring to memorise some lines to one of shakespeare's play, then the "voice" of shakespeare came out, and then give all teh examples.. quite nice :) there were really nice effects like wind and thnder n lightning as well, when they were showing the macbeth part :p
the lamp post tehre is interesting as well haha... recognise where it's from?
the donkey is the clue.. it's from midsummers night dream haha.. so i do know my shakespeare right :p
this is teh theatre.. i think taht stratford is really worth going, if you are going to watch any one of the shakespeare plays, but's its pricey as well.. like £7-10? sigh..... but either than taht.. u can do wat we did and go to the shakesperiance thing or to shakespeare's birthplace, which is below.. we didn't go to anne hathaway's cottage (his wife,) cause it was far and we didn't have time..
one of teh decorations in the shakespeare birthplace, we enter a muzuim like place first before entering the house itself..
this was a model of the theatres that they said shakespeare used to act in :p
the birth place,, where he was born.. too bad it's winter.. i bet the garden is really pretty in srping/summer.. we weren't allowed to take any pictures inside the house.. so sorry there are none, there wre ppl there to make sure we couldn't take pics, and to explain stuff to us.. and i learnt where the expression sleep tight came from :p last time the beds were supported with strings, so it was like a hammock effect, so the tighter the strings, teh more comfy.. hence.. sleep tight :p
no idea wat this is, came across it when trying to look for the church where shakespeare is buried... it was at the end of wood st??
sign says it all...
outside of teh church..
the door is low, so you had to bend to go in.. security reason??
nice stained glass.. typical of all teh churches here.. got bored of churches here already... they are all simliar...
the stained glass above shakespeare's grave and the altar...
the figure of shakespeare, it was said taht teh person who made the figurine knew shakespeare personally, and so this cld b the closest u can get to the real person... when we came in there was a tour guide so we listened in, that's how we know haha... and tehre was the thing used to baptise shakespeare as well, and teh documents of his baptism and death...
his grave and coat of arms... a lot of ppl thing that the thing in the middle is a pen, as shakespeare was a poet.. actually its a spear.... apparently we were supposed to contribute £1.50 to go near the grave, but xian ai and i didn't realised, and we just walked right through hahah.... only when we left the church only i realised haha but oh well... now i know why tat guy gave us a funny look and asked what we were doing... haha
that is where u do brass rubbing, it's more like for kids, u noe all they do is like, have a template, u put a paper over and colour it.. like putting a coin udner a paper, and colouring it.. so that teh coin's featuere's come out.. same here.. but it was quite nice.. but pricey....
the statues near river avon.. depicting works from shakespeare here we hv lady macbeth... from the play.. macbeth..
the main statue... crap.. i keep typing statue as statute.... == too much law liao...
haha this was at the bus stop... ;p
so that's all for now... xian ai and i took like 120 pics haha.. but i only put this few.. the rest are on facebook if u wanna c :p
-Oracl3-
ps nishikido ryo rocks!! hahah... well the character he plays in the dramas... does haha... :p one litre of tears rocks.. so touching, and also attention please.. it's so funny it rocks too.. too bad cruncyroll has only uploaded till eps 9 only sigh.... i'll wait for it ahha... my weekend entertainment.... :p
hahah... nick leong made this for me. was thinking of putting it in the side bar but am not sure how == since now it's more complicated and invovles making a table.. i ve already uploaded it onto my geocities ...
desmond snt me a link to the weather forecast the night before that it will snow till it's bout 10-15cm deep haha.. so anticipating it...i wnt to sleep at 3 sthg.. after staring out teh window.. and noticing no snow... then at 6am... my computer wnt " it's 6 o clock" and my eyes just opened.. i looked out and this is what greeted me...
it's mroe snow than alst round!!!
this time i even had snow on my window sill!! :p
after that i went back to sleep.. cause it wasnt' snowing.. teh snow was alerady tehre.. can play with it tmw...
at 830 xian ai called me waking me up saying it was snowing.. i looked out.. "it's sleet la" then proceeeded to wash my face etc... lookiing out again.. the sleet has stopped.. and it was really SNOWING!! hahha.. so .......
you cant tell it;s snowing from these pics...
can u c the snow falling?? hehe
paul and i posing at a tree
making a snowman!! :p
my hair was getting soaked cos of the snow.. so i started to put up my hood.. this is the finished product... :p our snow man :p
the view when we were walking towards teh lake fr bridges.. because it deosnt snow often, and cos it doesn;t last.. and since i had no classes today.. i decided to take a walk, and take some pictures of the snow covered campus..
walking pass the lake.. :p whiteknight's lake.. university of reading.. but the water wasn't frozen like yesterday ==
the snow was gradually stopping ==
so i removed my hood.. :p
tilt ur head left to c the beauty of it..
tile left...
well i arrived at foxhill and met, jyy mei, jyy huey, eddy, and amy... and we took some pics and a video.. but i hv yet to get my hands on tat.. and i hv some pics with derrick whcih i took w him on campus... and well with vinyee when i played snow w them at the back of bridges.. must get them all :p
-Oracle-
yes.. if u noticed i actually hv no mood today.... meb tired cos not enough sleep n playing snow the whole mornig.. but i had nothing to do.. n just cleaned my room.. and i had all these overdue posts.. (refer below) so i tot wat the hell.. post oni la.. so there it is la... leave me alone till monday....
