Sometimes we just get so fed up with some people and things, but we can't help it, it's not easy to get rid off. Getting rid of it, would mean breaking fellowships and things, which seems kind of selfish and childish on my part. And I don't want people to take sides, because of my little rift, or dissatisfaction. And well, wouldn't it be a waste of things??
But being so altruistic has no benefits at all, people don't appreciate you, take you for granted, assume you are always carefree, and basically take the fullest advantage out of you, whether they realise it or not, and that gets very tiring. You get sick of people who seem to care, but don't care at all.
Whether they are pretending to care, or really care but don't know how to show it, remains a mystery. But it still gets sickening, and tiring. Gestures are nice, sincere gestures are even nicer. Maybe it was the way I was brought up, but I guess what I'm looking for has yet to come, or I'm not doing the right things to meet what I'm looking for.
But sometimes when I stop and look to my sides, I see somethings that I've searched for. It's not exactly complete, and makes me want more, then I start to think, am I being greedy? Is that Okay? Is it okay to be selfish? To take, and not give in return? I don't want to fall to that level, so I hesitate.....
Okay.... Fake Buddhist Crapping post aside.. (currently reading the Buddha, Geoff & Me.. that would explain it all...) which I think only 3 people would somewhat understand fully what this is all about.... So if you don't understand it, it's okay... it's just me crapping.... On to some other news....
Life has been mundane lately, wake up - go to work - come home - work and sleep late; or if possible, watch some drama or anime or something and sleep early - repeat again the next day.
Friday is a tad different, since I get to hang out with some friends every Friday after work, then Weekends.... I've not much of a life either.... and Monday crawls on me from behind again.. with somewhat murderous intent...
Christmas was okay, it was the usual eating spree.. Nothing superb... unless you count my aunt's new house.. she has a flair for decoration I must say... :p
Boxing day was sad! I had to work.... But it was okay... The day after was okay, since its the sales, bought 2 working blouses... so damn Expensive... and the shirts in that shopping mall... the mall I frequent is crap... not even 2 months, and there's a pleasant hole in the blouse.. it was like 45 bucks!! RIP OFF!! BOYCOTT!!!!! GAAAHHH!! Waste of money... not-so-cheap is not neccessarily good.. Sometimes we have to go for the brands, for QUALITY products...
Next...
Someone weirded me out recently, with its (Yes, you read correct, no gender to be specified... could or could not even be human....) actions?
Maybe it's me being overly sensitive.. but please.. don't do things like that in front of me??? It freaks me out, cause it NEVER does that..... Okay, maybe I'm being overly sensitive.. Ignore me...
Ants are attacking me...
My intention to build more good karma has gone down the drain, since they started biting me... Am on a murder spree now.. killing not-so-innocent victims....
-Oracl3-
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