*The weather is so hot.... where is my rain... my heavy thunderstorms?? *
「おたんじょうびおめでとさとしくん」 Happy Birthday Satoshi kun aka Ccy..

today's may 21st.. and it's his birthday...Ccy is 21 years old already!! haha... too bad it's after the elections.... haha..

anyway.. for his birthday, i was totally clueless as to what to do... firstly, i have.... no transport to go out... and i really didn't now what to get him....

so what did i do? well, he likes food..

therefore.... i baked him an apple pie

[pictures to be inserted later :p]

hope he likes it i reduced the salt and sugar.. since you don't really like sweet things like me haha.. and well. the salt reduction is just a habit, since my family is kind of health conscious

knowing my skills.. keke.. it should taste spankingly nice, haha

Happy Birthday!!

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"Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back. sometimes we get so busy with our lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away. sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's eight and wrong. sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late. i don't want to let that happen so i'm gonna tie you to my heart, so i never lose you."

*The quote above is dedicated to the Birthday boy, Friends forever (just like on the key chain i got you eons ago )
and well the part below.. isn't meant nor dedicated to him.. except the last line? haha *

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I got that quote from the mail from my SAM classmate Linda... thought it was nice so am sharing... but it's true... a lot of people.. and i mean a lot of people.. i'm no exception.. don't realise that we've lost a meaningful friendship till we've lost them... though i try my best to keep the meaningful ones.. but it takes two hands to clap....

all relationships whether it's with family, friends or lovers, is a two way street.. it's all give and take... though with family and lovers.. maybe...... the giving may be more unconditional.. but i don't know...

i do know, that relationships can't last if it's only a one way street.. people get tired when they have to keep giving.. i know this the best.. sometimes you just want to take some things back.. it's not like you expect anything in return, but...

Heck even civil servants get a day off too, you know... there are times when you just want to take, we are just human, we aren't God, we can't just keep giving and giving.. there is no endless flow of giving, the giving has to come from somewhere.. and like everything in this world, it is not a continuous, it needs to rest and replenish...

But the people around you, are so used to taking, that they don't know how to give anything back... so who wants to stay in a relationship where they are being taken for granted? obviously that's why a lot of couples/friendships break up...

sometimes... the other party may realise too late, that the person is tired.. but some people don't do a thing, and some try to give back.. but sometimes.. you know.. when it's too late, it's just too late... if you really want to win that person back, doing a half-assed job will make that person drift even further away from you...

as they say, once bitten twice shy... when people have to tell you what to do.. it loses all meaning.. it feels like you are doing it, because we told you to, like it's an obligation on your part... it's no longer your own personal motivation..

saying that you don't know what do to, is merely an excuse.. is it that hard to think, how you would like others to treat you? and do the same? example, if you are sick. wouldn't you like it, if someone cooked, let's say porridge or chicken soup for you? accompany you to the doctor? it's the same thing... doing small little things, are sufficient... every action of ours, no matter how big or small, causes a ripple.. and this is true for both negative and positive actions.. (it's true it's hard to control our actions, especially the negative actions, but just try your best..)

we are all humans.. yet we don't understand other humans.. it's not really a mystery, the answer is just right in front of us.. still don't know the answer? it's simple.. because humans are all selfish creatures, with the only thing going through our minds is "me, myself and I". oh how tired i am of people like that..

i don't mind the fact that the human mind is all "me, myself and I" but it would be nice, if they could squeeze a little "& you" into that equation.. the "you" which isn't the "i love you, because i need you..." not that "you "....

But the "i need you, because i love you" that type of "you"... (for all relationships, family, friends, lovers.. why do people think that, that only applies to lovers??? don't you love your family and friends???) guess that's just too much to ask.. especially of certain people..

though I'm tired of being in this world with such people.. I'm glad that there are still some people, the minority that they are, who take the time to squeeze that little special "you" in their lives..

Again, Happy Birthday Satoshi kun :)

-Oracl3-