"Everyone just wants to be understood..." -MikexMichelle-

-わたしにりかいつるそんなにたいへんかな？-
Do i really portray myself as an irresponsible person?
A dependant person?
A person who is always cheerful and carefree, with not a worry in the world?
A person whose thinking is still far from mature?

How do i portray myself to others, there were many times i wondered. to different groups of people, my portrayal may be different i guess, i mean i noticed that myself... especially when i'm with friends and family...

With family i notice i tend to be more dependant (but when i'm with my sister, it's 50-50...), but when they aren't around, i go into auto mode (looking after myself automatically haha) much to the chagrin of my family members :p who till date, are still trying to force me to be independent, even when they are around... haha

With friends, i notice that i tend to be independent, (i.e. auto mode; or if you can get my hidden meaning? haha ) and i do take care of them as well.. but i guess sometimes you get tired, and just as the baby birds leave the nest, it's no different here... dogs are better, they only leave you at death, or err.. theft....

Then again, would you think i'm hard to understand.. i don't know how well my family knows me, since i'm more open with them than with friends, and there isn't a need to put on airs, but just be yourself, and well i do confide in family more.... though some friends are exceptions.... hmmm~ my character.....

Yes i admit, i have a short temper, impatient, i don't know how to sweet talk, ignorant & naive, lazy, rude, contradictory, temperamental, lack of a sense of humour...

But i still don't think i'm that hard to understand, if you really take your time to know me, you can know me in less than a year, as some friends have portrayed. He could even read my moods.. as i said before, it's all about analysing a person, you have to take notice of that person and interact to know the person... i mean, come one, if you have been around me for years, you should know my character right? although people change, the essentials should still be the same...

But i guess i'm proven wrong... how long you know me, doesn't signify how well you know me...
Sometimes i shock even myself, with that revelation...

“People do not like to think. If one thinks, one must reach conclusions. Conclusions are not always pleasant” -Hellen Keller-

-Oracl3-