Ecchi no hentai, kaisan. Begone you peverted weirdo....

Well, at least that's what i hope it meant....

You know, often i wonder, is it just me? or is it really happenning.. Sometimes, i really had to start questionning myself... am i overly preceptive? in Malaysian language, that would read as Perasaan...

i usually take the train alone to class, and i noticed such incidents happen usually on weekends.. Now fear not, for i have not been groped or what not.. and read on, to hear my experience....

Rarely, though it happens, and it's annoying... i get this certain weirdo...... who makes me super uncomfortable, and it's so damn irritating.. Now i don't mean to be racist or anything, but so far all this weirdos all look indian or malay to me....

Okay, so here's what happens most of the time.. as i said the ocurrences are rare, it has happened only about 3 times so far.. this is the 3rd? or is it the 4th? anyway, i don't really keep count... (who want's to remember such things??)

Usually when i board the train.. i'll try to get a seat, cause i'm afraid i will faint or something, being anaemic and all i guess haha.. though more often than not, it's because my bag is heavy, and i'm lazy to stand..

it's perfectly normal for other people to sit next to you on the train, but sometimes you get these weirdos, who seem to like to enroach into your space...

a few times i have been left wondering, why do you have to sit with your legs so damn wide open...? Are you opening a coffee shop??? i mean they sit with their legs wide open and one of their thighs are touching mine..

I don't like being touched by strangers.... and that is the final bottom line.. sure if i have to hug someone at a family gathering or something, but if possible, i do not like touching strangers..

*Though i get cosy with people i'm familiar with, i REALLY, REALLY don't like it, when strangers touch me...

I'm like.. can't you sit more to the other side? or at least close your legs...?

so what do i do? either i bear with it, or i move a little, or i just stand up.. Now this is the part where i feel that i'm overly sensitive.. I've no idea if it's just me, but it feels to me, that those weirdos were doing it on purpose.. and sometimes i catch them glancing at me, from the corner of their eyes..

my irritation surmounts. but i kept it below the surface and acted as cool as ice.. if they were really harrassing me, showing any expression, tends to egg them on, so the best is just to ignore, it's just like why a boy bullies the girl he likes, it's because he wants her attention.. It's the same with these perverts... They get a kick out of your reactions...

Back to the topic...

if i was being overly sensitive, then it could mean that the guy didn't mean it.. but i doubt it.. my defintion of harrasment, is when guys/girls make you feel uncomfortable. And i tend to believe in my intuition, and my intuition says i m being harrassed...

so what is a girl like me to do.. they make it look so innocent, that it would be absurd of me to just suddenly take out a pepper spray or something, to start spraying at them, and it seems like such a trivial issue to just raise, and ask the guy to move. but since it rarely happened, and since they live me alone when i move away from their contact, i let it lay...

But today's was the worse of the whole lot.. the usual stuff, i woke up late because i slept really late the night before.. and was kind of stoned.. i reached the station got on the train..

now this guy.. He looked kind of chinese, but i don't think he is chinese, his skin colour was kind of tan like a malay. but i stil felt that he was anything either than chinese.. i just had that feeling..

he got on the train and saw me, saw an empty seat next to me, and he was the weirdest bunch of them all... he didn't sit immideatly, but seemed to be looking left and right, and hogging the seat, by not allowing others to seat there... i was like.. where on earth does he want to sit... but couldn't be bothered, as i was tired..

finally he sat down.. now, i like to sit near the glass partition, near the door, so that it's easier for me to get out. i.e read as, i'm basically cornered..

he sat next to me, and....... it was the thigh thing yet again..

you know, i don't think you can blame me for being Perasaan.. i mean it's already a few times... and i've always felt uncomfortable.. the best part of it all is... i don't think that i'm that pretty or cute as to invite harrasment, and i do not dress provocatively. Take today for example, i was wearing a turtle neck sweater and jeans... i was basically covered everywhere.. i don't understand these harrassments.. that's why i say, they are weirdos..

Anyway today's one, as i was saying did the thigh thing.. now that wouldn't have been so bad, cause as usual, i'll then flatten myself against the glass panel, and if he still comes close, i would tell him off... but.. yes... you heard the but...

THIS WEIRDO started to stare at me.. i know he was, because unlike the others, he just turned his head blatantly to stare at me.. (does he want to rob me or something on a train full of people??)

inside...i was like "...... okay.... WTF is his problem..." but on the outside, i just stared straight ahead, not even acknowledging his existance..

now usually that worked.. but this weirdo, started leaning nearer to me.. Inside i was like "WTF is his problem??!!"

outside, i gave no hint that he had affected me at all.. and his upper body started to lean more to my side..

Inside i was going "come any closer and meet my fist..." but just to make sure i don't start hitting people for no reason (that's battery and punishable under the law..) so to give myself an excuse of self defence or whatever (honestly, i would have told him off first though, before i let sheer force do its work..)

i squeezed myself against the glass.. during everything, my internal debate.. the simmering irritation, all inside, not a hint on the outside, not even a look at him..

When it seemed obvious that i was ignoring him, and when i moved closer to the glass panel, he suddenly stood up and went else where, to another carriage.. (if he had moved nearer.. honestly, my reflexes might have just made me hit him, or if lucky for him, my mind is faster than my fist, i would have asked him, what is his problem... maybe i should have done that from the start...)

now mind you, we were in between stations... but he didn't go to any door to wait to get off, but to find another seat.. it marked my suspicions even more that he was harrassing me... and since i showed no reaction, and actually moved away from him, he immediatly got up and moved..

if you weren't harrassing me, you would have just sat there.. so isn't he suspicious...?? SO DAMN IRRITATING!!

GAAH!! Why do irritating people like that exist???!!! they should all be ....

He should be caught and thrown into prison before he does even worse things, like flashing, outraging others modesty, or even rape!!! WEIRDO BEGONE!!!!!!!

Anyway, i was warning, xian ai about it on the way home on the train, and i found out that apparently people flash in buses too.... SICK-OSSSSS!!!!!!!

well i had my experience with flashers before. and i think those sick-os who touch you are by far worse... Question remains... why me??? go in disturb other more attractive people.... =.='

Even in the London underground, i never experienced such harrassments..... i mean there were drunk people, fat-drunk-middle aged man.. but at least non touched me...

One was a drunk white collar man, who was asleep, and suddenly jolted awake.. he was drunk.. and he told me he was supposed to change to the jubilee line.. and i was like, but we passed that already.. he.. well i guess tried to whisper to me that he was supposed to change trains lines.. but he jsut leant in whispered, and was leant back again..and i didn't feel harassed..

The second time was the 2 fat man and 2 young punks, who just so happened to meet, the 2 old man... and the old ones tried, to get my attention, but i totally ignored them, and the young ones laughed at the old ones.. saying she doesn't think you are cool..

even i smiled inside on that.. but they were nice.. i didn't feel harassed either... and they later asked me, if the train goes to king's cross... which i confirmed it did, and told them it was their stop when they reached.. they thanked me and got off...

those are ok, they don't touch me, and make no move towards me... and i don't feel any harrassment from them.. and those usually happen late at night when i'm taking the tube after 11pm..

And stuff as mentioned above... happens in broad day light in malaysia.. imagine what our night time is like..

i definitely need a pepper spray... PERVERTED WEIRDO... BEGONE!!!

-Oracl3-