Missing you... 

Thinking of you...

Wanting to hold you...

To hear you...

Why is it so hard?

-サヤカ-

For some reason at the beginning, you didn't really like sleeping on my lap that much. I don't know why.

Maybe that time I was too skinny and was all skin and bones and wasn't comfortable enough for you to sleep on?

Either way, I was always jealous that you would always go lie on someone's else lap even though I was your mummy.

But well, after that you started to snuggle up to me, and I noticed, comfortable or not, I don't know, but I did gain some weight from 10 years ago, so maybe my lap became nice and snugly for you too.

I want to feel you on my lap again, I want you to snuggle on my lap right now...

But I guess that's impossible now....

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Hi Baby,

I don't know if it's the cold weather or it's just the way things are now... I want someone from home to call me, yet don't want anyone from home to call me.

Calling me, means I can't see you, you are not there. But not calling me, leaves me lonely.

Either way, my tears have still not dried, so I guess it makes no difference at all. lol


-sunz-