The days don't get any easier.

-サヤカ-

 Since I've been feeling down in the dumps lately, and trying to distract myself with my work and games, let me post something that was at least a little remotely funny to me when I did it to you.

In 2013 after my first trip back from Japan, I bought a few things here and there, and my then violin teacher asked me to buy some stickers for his niece, I did, and since it was a gift, I took off the price tag, and being cheeky me, I stuck it on you.

You hate whenever I used to do things like that to you, sticking something on your forehead, like those chinese zombies.

I was so mean right? but anyway, I sent a picture of you with the price tag to my Japanese friends, and all of them said "wah you are so cheap!" haha well 370yen, that is cheap haha, but you know, as we all do, you are actually priceless.

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Hi Baby,

It's been 90 days, and the days don't get any easier, I wake up with tears in my eyes... I sometimes sleep with a few tears in my eyes too, I try to keep busy, I try to keep you close, but it's hard.

How do you mend a broken heart? How do you get over the loss of 13 years of love and companionship? 

How do you mend the feelings of guilt and of anger of not being there when you needed me most?

How do you heal the pain that stemmed from not being able to be by your side during those last few months, weeks, days and hours?

How do you mend the feelings of wanting to see you, hold you, cuddle you, talk to you.

I want to see your face, I want to see you react to me when I talk to you, when I bully you, when we cuddle.

What do you do? What can I do?

-sunz-