As the days go past,

It chips off more of me,

Than it did yesterday.

- サヤカ-

I was sorting through the pictures on my phone and Ipad what with all the picture taking recently and I think most memories with pictures have already been shared... I guess.

And once again Im sitting here thinking what I should share. There are too many things to share, too many emotions to write about, yet here I am like an empty vessel. 

Most of our memories are happy, laughing memories, but the reason why I'm having so much difficulty writing them, is because I'm anything far from happy and giggly. 

And I feel that if I do try to share those memories in my current mood, I would not be doing them justice... 

So since I'm struck with this lazy feeling, let's share about us... lazing around. 

So all we did was lay down in our spot of choice, and did nothing. Maybe stare into space, and later fall asleep. But we both acted like fixtures lol, doing nothing, and I think, 10 out of 10 times for some reason, you loved to show me your butt...

lol...

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Hi Baby,

I feel like everyday is just going past.

To be frank, since you left, I didn't want to eat, didn't want to go to work; I just didn't want to do anything.

I just wanted to lie there and wither away. Especially on my bad days.

But that will make people around me worry - that will make you worry too right?

So I force myself to eat, force myself to take care of my self; force myself to not cry so much...

But all this forcing is becoming tiring for me...

-sunz-