sigh... i ve been like tat for months. no i think it's been close to 3 years? yet instead of improvements, it actually became worse...

it was intially mild but i realise that it has become very, very bad, especially of late,i m tired of this facade, tired of it all.. yet i strive on? whatever for?

my patience has all but run out, especially to inconsiderate people, without realising it, i blow up at them.. and then feel guilty after that.. and try to apologise.. but what is the point of apologising, when you have already blown up? though i believe what i said holds water.. but still.. i have no patience at all..

second type of person i tend to lose patience, but not blow up is people with the lack of common sense.. sigh it used to amuse me, when they lacked common sense, in some cases, but now it just plains annoys me...

what to do? what to do? sigh...
it's like sayaka hime(princess) just decided to come out and throw a tantrum... well, at least that's what my mom calls it.. it's like the spoilt bratty princess came out..

i don't really think it's throwing a tantrum, it's just giving you a piece of my mind..in a not very polite way i guess... i don't think of myself as having such tantrums..

maybe i do, outsiders should know best.. but i don't simply scream and shout insisting i want things my way.. i m just telling you off for being an inconsiderate arse... but i m trying hard... to search for that silver lining in the cloud..

"i strive on, hoping to fight the darkness, though i feel it will devour me in the end"

-Oracl3-