"depression is an art i need not learn... i'm a pro...."

you never know what is going on, what is with this world and what is with the people....

you seriously never know what people want, when i'm nice, you people say one thing, when i'm mean you guys say another thing, there is no pleasing you, either way i can't get away from it, so why give a damn? just do what i want, as long as i am happy. it doesn't matter anymore right?live your life the way you want to. to hell with the motto "i'm fine with anything, as long as you are happy" screw it, why must i give a damn whether you are happy?? what about my own happiness?? do you even give a damn? putting on a smile on the outside, while inside i m all torn up.. at times i just feel like telling the world to just bugger off...

when you are nice to people, they don't appreciate it, step all over you, make use of you. tell me how many of you people feel appreciated or actually bother to appreciate people? if you do appreciate people, do you know how to show it? i doubt it. everyone has these kind of feelings at a certain point, so what is our natural defense? to be mean? you protect yourself emotionally like that. or to withdraw and be a loner? that way you don't have to deal with people's shit to start with. i never really knew what hate or dislike ever was.. now? i m getting the idea...

sometimes i wonder why do we even bother to form bonds? it seems so meaningless, we form bonds to feel loved and appreciated, but how many of us really feel that way? no one is perfect, there are times where we do feel discontented, but i feel it's all pointless, and i have no one suitable to help me change that view....

humans are selfish creatures by nature, why do the altruistic ones exist? it just gets so tiring to be surrounded by people, at times i think its better off being alone.

it's sad, helping people whenever you can, but when you need help, no one is there....fairweather friends is what we call them... how i want and all weather friend right now....where are you when i need you?? it's really a case of out of sight, out of mind isn't it?

that's why i say you never know what the world throws back at you. all you can do is continue to hold your head up and go on walking.. it sucks.. but that... sad to say.. is life.... you get shit like this sometimes.. so deal with it....

i need another walk in the woods to cheer me up =.=

-Oracl3-