Stay with me always.

-サヤカ-  

The first year of your life, I kept you mostly  in doors being paranoid of the germs and fleas and what not. 

Also you were too small and apparently your breed are escape artists so I was worried bout letting you into the garden in case you squeezed through the little gaps in the gate and ran out of the house. 

You were so cute that people would likely kidnap you in a heartbeat. 

And as far as I know in the 13 years that we were together you had only snuck out  through the gap in the gate once. 

You gave us all a huge scare then. 

I usually supervised you when you were in the garden but for some reason that day I was feeling trusting or something and went into the house leaving you in the garden alone. 

When I came to collect you, you weren't in the garden and gave me a scare. I searched the house for you. 

Even taking out your treats to try to tempt you to come. 

Mom and dad were anxious too. 

And then I stuck my head out the gate to see you happily exploring the neighbour's bin or something down the road. 

I immediately shouted for you to come back and you heard me. Head and ears perked up, you came running back. 

Dad ran into the house to get the keys for the gate. And while we fumbled with the lock you reached our gate. 

With such a gleeful, cheeky expression. Lol

So I asked you to wait there while we opened the gate. 

And lo and behold. An uncle with his wife just had to ride past our house on a motorbike. 

You being you then, decided to chase the motorbike. 

Which ended up with mom, dad & I screaming "STOP!" 

We gave that uncle and his wife quite a scare because he suddenly stopped his bike and both husband and wife stared at us bewildered. 

I will never forget that time. That scene. The look on their faces. 

Dad finally got the gate open. And when that couple realized what was going on. They went on their merry way. 

I don't know if we ever apologized to them. But let's say. That was the first and  last time you ever ran out from our gate. 

I did hear bout you sneaking out of ling yi's gate. But that's a story for another day. 

***

Hi Baby,

Today seemed to fare better for me. My mood is better than compared to the other days so I could share that funny memory. 

That is one memory that I always look back too from time to time and it always makes me laugh or at least smile. 

It's one memory that I will always carry with me. 

And since I'm doing my best not to upset those around me when they see me breakdown over losing you. 

I'm trying to keep my schedule busy... So...

Today I went to Hiezan or Hie mountain with my friend and his girlfriend. 

To visit the temple and to view 紅葉/kouyou or autumn leaves. 

The scenery was nice and while stepping in the autumn leaves, I thought of you and how you would enjoy playing in the leaves. 

You would have loved playing in this right? 

Beautiful colored leaves. 

That's my friend's back. Didn't realize I took him as well. Lol

I don't know what the stone says but the background is the main focus. Note the colours. 

Apparently ringing this bell makes wishes come true. It's impossible for my wish to come true though. So I just wished for love and happiness. 

I'm trying to get by day by day. Doing my best to live my life, till the time comes when we can meet again. 

-sunz-