Existence

What do you do,

When what makes you happy,

Is no longer on the same plane of existence?

-サヤカ-

I had, for most of the time , treated you more like a baby than a dog. 

I guess I played a very huge role in your humanization. 

But like a homosapien child you would pick up things if someone constantly interacted with you and I guess that's where you were dofferent from your siblings...

I gave you a lot of interaction. I didn't only just bath you, feed you or walk you. I also played with you a lot, talked to you a lot and cuddled you a lot.

I'm sure you will beg to differ by adding on,  I bullied you a lot too haha. 

One of those instance where I took treating you like a baby probably a little too much was in 2004. In my chemistry class in college we were doing some experiments I think, and somehow it involved pampers haha, and with the extras that I took home... Well, let's just let the pictures do the talking lol.

As usual, you must be wondering, what is your crazy mother up to again now, but you kindly obliged me. lol.

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Hi Baby,

I'm back in Japan, in the bus headed for Kobe. I guess while the change of scenery the last week might have done me some good, and getting to see some familiar faces may have helped a little, I still miss you dreadfully.

I think maybe sis shared on facebook, this picture which says "I want to live a simple life without stress or worry. I don't need a lot of stuff. I just want to be happy". 

That rang true with me in some ways, cause I don't need a lot of stuff. I just need you to be happy. 

So what do I do now? 

-sunz-